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Today isnt going to be my day either.I get a phone call from Kaitlyn at like 8:00am this morining telling me that she is moving to FL this week. She just turned 18 a week ago. But her plans are she's going to finish up high school down there and she plans to go to college there next year.:::cries:::: She was like my best softball friend. She was there for every ball I pitched, for every strike out I made, every ball I hit,for ever person I would stike out, my no hitter game just everything and now....she's gone. She'll never be at another one of my games when my arm goes numb but I tell her I'm fine and I can do this and she tells me No Shanna your going to hurt yourself and helps me.I just thought of her as a big sister to me. I wont be the same this summer for travling softball.I hate this alot of my friends are turning 18 and leaving. Kristen will be 18 tomrrow. Gezzz and who knows whats going to happen with her. Her and I have had soo many memories just this past summer and with cheerleading that has been so fun caused us to get into alot of troble but it was worth it.Driving in her honda civi at 90mph when we got caught sneeking off to Escalon at 11:00pm. I just hate seeing all my friends leaving.Well, then this morining my other friend Kelsey called me and was all "Shanna I'm leaving this weekend will you make me some chocolate haystacks and you havent made them for me in such a long time and I love them sooo much will so I was like sure, well I was trying to fast today but nooo I got some chocolate on my fingers and so I licked it off and I was like mmmmm this are good so I had 2 of them. Ugh!!!!! So, I was like just forget it so I came up on the computer to try and get it off my mind. Well,I then all of a sudden while I was talking to Sam I felt like I just had to get them out of me. So, I went and purged them well... tired... but not much would come up no matter how hard I tried. I'm just not going to eat for the rest of the day and IF I do I'll have grapes or something low in calories. I'm mad that I started to purge again lastnight. It has been over 2 weeks that I havent purged.:::sighs:::::
Well, my mom left to go to Redding today so its going to be so easy not to eat cuz my dad doesnt even pay attention to that stuff and my brothe spent the night at his friends so he wont be home until later today. Not that he cares what I do. It sooooooo cold out side and its suppost to rain the rest of the weekend.Grrrr!!!! I really need to be out running and stuff getting in shape for softball to start. I cant wait!! I'm going to play high school softball and then while I'm doing that I'm also going to do travling team. My dad thinks I will make Varsity softball team. I dont really want to though. I get soooooooooooooooooo much preusure put on me for softball. January comes and all the stress and all my emotions really get bad until August cuz of softball. Now that I wont have Kait I'm going to die. Well, I really need to clean my room so I should be going now. byebye
Well, my mom left to go to Redding today so its going to be so easy not to eat cuz my dad doesnt even pay attention to that stuff and my brothe spent the night at his friends so he wont be home until later today. Not that he cares what I do. It sooooooo cold out side and its suppost to rain the rest of the weekend.Grrrr!!!! I really need to be out running and stuff getting in shape for softball to start. I cant wait!! I'm going to play high school softball and then while I'm doing that I'm also going to do travling team. My dad thinks I will make Varsity softball team. I dont really want to though. I get soooooooooooooooooo much preusure put on me for softball. January comes and all the stress and all my emotions really get bad until August cuz of softball. Now that I wont have Kait I'm going to die. Well, I really need to clean my room so I should be going now. byebye