in a mood where i think way to much
I was thinking to myself last night which gets dangerous. but when it happens i am able to write my best songs. so i was glad that my brain felt at its best. I was laying in my bed watching TV when i heard the rain falling outside my window. So i thought to myself and i decided that it would be benifical to turn off the Tv and fall asleep while hearing the rain droplets falling on the ground outside my window.
i thought about how the best things in life really are free.
and
how a simple little thing like falling asleep with the rain is all i need to make me happy
and
how when something magnificant happens to you to try to remember it and live it again but you have a really hard time for some reason. you can remember what happened and every word that was said but you cant have the same feeling that you did at that particular time because the feeling was so grand you'd need to have thats experience again to feel that way. you can remember u just cant feel.
and
how when something bad happenes you try to block it out and not live it again but you have a really hard time for some reason. you can remeber everything that happened and every word that was said and you continue to feel the same hurt at the time of the occurence as you do now. i wonder why it works that way ?
and
how i have this feeling that i need to apologize for everything. i say im sorry all the time. even when its not my fault. like when im in the mall and someone runs into me. and i tell them that im really sorry. what the hell am i saying sorry for, they are the ones that ran into me. i need to stop with the apologizing.
and
how i get into the situations that i get myself into. the most wonderful situations.
and
how wonderful it feels to dance under the moonlight with your lover even when theres no music
and
how when my brother and i are tackling eachother and he wins and lays on me i can still breathe. but when a person 100 pounds lighted then my brother lays only on half of my body it takes my breath away?
and last... but not least
how i want to tell everyone in the world every single little thing that goes on between me and shane. but then i want everything that goes on between us to be a complete secret.i want everything to be intamate and i only want us to know about it. but theni realized that the only thing that i really want known is how in love we are. i guess thats all i really want. i just want everyone one to know how wonderful it feels to be in love. but i realized last night that its a lost cause because you will never ever understand what it feels liek to be in love until you are in love. so now i know all that i need to do is continue doing what i am and let people figure it out for themselves. i guess i have done a damn good job because now i get things said to me like "i know that you are in love because the look in your eyes when you see each other is the same look that i had for my husband when i got married" how wonderful that made me feel. :)
i guess the quote that im going to use to sum this up is "i dont kiss and tell"
i thought about how the best things in life really are free.
and
how a simple little thing like falling asleep with the rain is all i need to make me happy
and
how when something magnificant happens to you to try to remember it and live it again but you have a really hard time for some reason. you can remember what happened and every word that was said but you cant have the same feeling that you did at that particular time because the feeling was so grand you'd need to have thats experience again to feel that way. you can remember u just cant feel.
and
how when something bad happenes you try to block it out and not live it again but you have a really hard time for some reason. you can remeber everything that happened and every word that was said and you continue to feel the same hurt at the time of the occurence as you do now. i wonder why it works that way ?
and
how i have this feeling that i need to apologize for everything. i say im sorry all the time. even when its not my fault. like when im in the mall and someone runs into me. and i tell them that im really sorry. what the hell am i saying sorry for, they are the ones that ran into me. i need to stop with the apologizing.
and
how i get into the situations that i get myself into. the most wonderful situations.
and
how wonderful it feels to dance under the moonlight with your lover even when theres no music
and
how when my brother and i are tackling eachother and he wins and lays on me i can still breathe. but when a person 100 pounds lighted then my brother lays only on half of my body it takes my breath away?
and last... but not least
how i want to tell everyone in the world every single little thing that goes on between me and shane. but then i want everything that goes on between us to be a complete secret.i want everything to be intamate and i only want us to know about it. but theni realized that the only thing that i really want known is how in love we are. i guess thats all i really want. i just want everyone one to know how wonderful it feels to be in love. but i realized last night that its a lost cause because you will never ever understand what it feels liek to be in love until you are in love. so now i know all that i need to do is continue doing what i am and let people figure it out for themselves. i guess i have done a damn good job because now i get things said to me like "i know that you are in love because the look in your eyes when you see each other is the same look that i had for my husband when i got married" how wonderful that made me feel. :)
i guess the quote that im going to use to sum this up is "i dont kiss and tell"