*sigh*
Well i've been up since 6am to get to this fucking job, i sincerely hate it, its the singular most demeaning thing i've had to do in years, then why am i doing it you may ask? Simple, I have to do it to get this new house sorted and to be a good boyfriend to my baby... *sigh*
But seriously, it's already making me so thoroughly miserable, all i wanna do is just curl up and die... it offends me to the core that I have to go and do a stupid job involving shelf filling to get my money, and to make matters worse i have to do it otherwise Ali will be in trouble. It's a totally no win situation, its making me realise how utterly unemployable i actually am if this is all i could get out of the hundreds of fucking jobs i applied for.
To make matters even worse i now have to somehow find time to move house during all this, when im working every fucking hour that i have... I dont have any time for relaxation as im too tired at the end of the day and dont sleep well cause im upset, i think im gonna get the job paper on thursday just to see whats out there and carry on looking for a job while doing this.
Im sorry to anyone reading this who thinks im being a moaney little shit, but to be quite blunt, think what you fucking want, i couldnt give a shit... In the end this is my life and only a couple of people know what truely goes on in my head to motivate me to actions...
Anyway, rant over, gotta go get ready for work and shit
I hate my life :(
But seriously, it's already making me so thoroughly miserable, all i wanna do is just curl up and die... it offends me to the core that I have to go and do a stupid job involving shelf filling to get my money, and to make matters worse i have to do it otherwise Ali will be in trouble. It's a totally no win situation, its making me realise how utterly unemployable i actually am if this is all i could get out of the hundreds of fucking jobs i applied for.
To make matters even worse i now have to somehow find time to move house during all this, when im working every fucking hour that i have... I dont have any time for relaxation as im too tired at the end of the day and dont sleep well cause im upset, i think im gonna get the job paper on thursday just to see whats out there and carry on looking for a job while doing this.
Im sorry to anyone reading this who thinks im being a moaney little shit, but to be quite blunt, think what you fucking want, i couldnt give a shit... In the end this is my life and only a couple of people know what truely goes on in my head to motivate me to actions...
Anyway, rant over, gotta go get ready for work and shit
I hate my life :(