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Usually, waking up 2 hours past your alarm is not a great way to start the day.
Thank god I had already done most of my homework. And I used the Klonopin as my excuse for oversleeping.
Which was probably mostly true. It didn't seem to help my anxiety while I was talking with Mrs. Kendrick though.
I'm just feeling so defeated at this point. Regardless of the fact that I've worked for over 3.5 years for this degree, I just want to quit. We have such a lack of direction and contact with the teachers. The contradictory information we get is ridiculous, and clarification is tedious. The busy work we have takes hours and hours beyond the time we spend in clinicals, or driving to and from clinicals. Not to mention the cost of gas, there is the price of parking at these various locations. I will have paid $72 for management parking by the end of the semester. Not including the 40 minutes it takes to get to our hospice patients house, the hour and a half (each way) for our teaching project, 30 minutes each way for the sex ed teaching. Hopefully my April-May clinicals will have a free parking deck. Plus, clinical paperwork takes at least 3 hours per clinical. Realistically probably 4.
I just feel like I'm also having that shock many freshmen in college get of realizing the hugeness of the world. I am just seeing the hugeness of world problems, especially American problems, and I just can't seem to find a way to fix it, so I want to shut everything out. I hate being all dramatic and "i just want to save the world, blah blah" I'm just having a bad... semester.
Thank god I had already done most of my homework. And I used the Klonopin as my excuse for oversleeping.
Which was probably mostly true. It didn't seem to help my anxiety while I was talking with Mrs. Kendrick though.
I'm just feeling so defeated at this point. Regardless of the fact that I've worked for over 3.5 years for this degree, I just want to quit. We have such a lack of direction and contact with the teachers. The contradictory information we get is ridiculous, and clarification is tedious. The busy work we have takes hours and hours beyond the time we spend in clinicals, or driving to and from clinicals. Not to mention the cost of gas, there is the price of parking at these various locations. I will have paid $72 for management parking by the end of the semester. Not including the 40 minutes it takes to get to our hospice patients house, the hour and a half (each way) for our teaching project, 30 minutes each way for the sex ed teaching. Hopefully my April-May clinicals will have a free parking deck. Plus, clinical paperwork takes at least 3 hours per clinical. Realistically probably 4.
I just feel like I'm also having that shock many freshmen in college get of realizing the hugeness of the world. I am just seeing the hugeness of world problems, especially American problems, and I just can't seem to find a way to fix it, so I want to shut everything out. I hate being all dramatic and "i just want to save the world, blah blah" I'm just having a bad... semester.