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okay my fucking horse is sick again and now i am flat broke an d wtf am i suppose to do when i leave for south carolina in less than 12 fucking hours i am fucking retarded and i hate my life at this moment in time i am so stressed in tears nothing can go right this past fucking week so when i get up to s.c. am i going to have a horrible time being surrounded by people just like me?YES!!! i am going to be surrounded by people who think m oney can buy love and all that other bull shyt but i know now that it cant no matter what..
things i want right now
1.to be happy
2.to be able to hear ashton say she cares about me and herself the most
3.my horse to not keep getting fucking sick
4.my car fixed
5.an awesome paying job
6.my life to quit with the ups and downs i just want the ups
7.to be with the person i love on new years day
and i could go on and on and on......i am not happy anymore i still care but only about certain things and if those things went away then yea i would probably go fucking nuts but i dont want to write anymore i have to go pick up my car....