just whatever
okay yeah i have had this thing for kyle for like 3 years and now it's all gone to hell and yea ane and twan were here to cheer me up thank you guys love you....well since he felt likehe was goin back on his feelings for brittany then she can have him yeah ill be down for a couple but oh well right who cares seems like i dont anymore and william just fuck him i have matured a hella lot since i have moved down here and shyt a lot this summer and he hasnt and i have just realized that but damn after 3 years and finally confessing to him at the mullet festival and then he tells me the same and to realize i made him feel like he was going back on his feelings for her yeah youre welcome for being your best fucking friend and all that shyt you told me and everyone else but yeah what he left out is kassiy i am just using you but remember when i am over her i do want to be with you bull fucking shyt but all this tells me is i think i am not girlfriend material just dating but why doesnt that surprise me and past that i have had a pretty good life made up with james and we are cool again so i am so estatic about that in a way him and anna are doing so great its so awesome to see 2 awesome friends happy together makes me happy but now why cant i be happy? oh well right? i am usually the person who fucks up in the relationships or i date assholes but i finally thought i found a nice guy who wouldnt turn out to be an asshole but damn guess I was wrong once again and i guess i am more pissed at myself than him i dont know what to think so i am just living my life to the fullest but i still dont do drugs the last time i drank was after homecoming at johns house and i only drank half a beer thats all i could stand before i puked and homecoming was awesome if i could forget about all the drama but oh well thats over but all in all i am feeling so damn down i laughed today yeah but people arent stupid they knew it was fake but thats how i feel right now dont want to smile dont want to laugh just leave me alone dont bring it up unless i bring it up to you but that never works out everyone at chocaw has their own story of what goes on and when you tell them the truth they doubt it so fuck em and i am starting to feel all down now so i shall be going so TOODLz