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So my grandfather is down from Pennsylvania and leaving to Cuba tomorrow...I am sending a bunch of pictures of Anthony & I to my mom as well as some sonogram and maternity pictures. It's been years since her & I have spoken or that she has seen any photos of me. I blame myself because I never put forth the effort to contact her but sadly the situation in Cuba in no way makes these sort of things easy. I don't want to make excuses either and I will visit Cuba again after Alexa is born. I am determined to visit because it's been far too long since I left.
At least through my grandfather visiting I'll be able to update her on my life and have her smile knowing I am doing well and perhaps we'll be able to maintain some sort of contact. Although it's tough not really knowing her I can honestly say that not having her in my life has not affected me, I was raised by a loving father and grandmother in Cuba and when I came to the US, my father was the one who raised me till he met my stepmother. A 29 year old man did not have to bring his 6 year old only daughter to a new Country. It saddens me that there are so many fathers out there who neglect their children. It's one thing to be a woman and take care of your child but a father deserves just as much if not more credit for doing so and alone for a few years. I had a father who made a multitude of sacrifices for me. It was just he & I and I am forever grateful for all he did. My stepmom was also someone who showed me unconditional love and as so many people complain about their stepmothers and/or fathers, I am thankful to have a stepmom who cared for me just as if I was one of her own children and still does. They have been together for about 17 years.
I've reflected upon this and I've realized that I want to give my daughter the same love my parents have given me because they've been a great example of what normal, even with their quirks, loving parents should be.
At least Alexa will have both Anthony & I as her parents and we plan on being the best parents we can possibly be. Bringing a child into this world is not easy but at least we'll be bringing her into a loving home.
I guess the gratitude for the small things runs deeper when you're looking at things from an entirely different perspective.
At least through my grandfather visiting I'll be able to update her on my life and have her smile knowing I am doing well and perhaps we'll be able to maintain some sort of contact. Although it's tough not really knowing her I can honestly say that not having her in my life has not affected me, I was raised by a loving father and grandmother in Cuba and when I came to the US, my father was the one who raised me till he met my stepmother. A 29 year old man did not have to bring his 6 year old only daughter to a new Country. It saddens me that there are so many fathers out there who neglect their children. It's one thing to be a woman and take care of your child but a father deserves just as much if not more credit for doing so and alone for a few years. I had a father who made a multitude of sacrifices for me. It was just he & I and I am forever grateful for all he did. My stepmom was also someone who showed me unconditional love and as so many people complain about their stepmothers and/or fathers, I am thankful to have a stepmom who cared for me just as if I was one of her own children and still does. They have been together for about 17 years.
I've reflected upon this and I've realized that I want to give my daughter the same love my parents have given me because they've been a great example of what normal, even with their quirks, loving parents should be.
At least Alexa will have both Anthony & I as her parents and we plan on being the best parents we can possibly be. Bringing a child into this world is not easy but at least we'll be bringing her into a loving home.
I guess the gratitude for the small things runs deeper when you're looking at things from an entirely different perspective.