running out of luck
Well hey everybody, whats going on in your lifes. Well mine its starting to suck. I realize that i hate my self. Not all of me but just a part of me and it has been fucking with my mined and its the only reason that i am not successful in life. Its because i fucking put things off. I tired of it, i just want to relive my life and start over. I always fuck things up because i put them off. Even if someone makes me its reall really hard for me. Theres something wrong with me and its really getting to me and making me hate myself. If you are reading this then your thinking why dont i do something about it. Well i can't, its to hard for me and i just want to give up. IF i do give up i can see me in the future being a person that fucking has to ride the bus to work and come home to nothing and just live a shity life. All this is true and i dont know what to do. i failed 6 classes last year and its becuase i put everything off. Also i have this i dont give a fuck kind of thing going on. I make so many promises to my self and never stick to them. I just really want to give up, and i dont care and its scaring me to death. I dont like the person i am, and might be. I feel like something is wrong with me and just hate it. I know im bitching about this but i dont care. It really hurts me when i think about it. It makes me want to curl up in a dark cornor and cry till i die. Theres just to many things i hate about myself and i wouldn't be all stressed out if i didn't put things off. I never be anything and i dont know why i try so hard.