i have had enough of this town
so i am basically exhausted, even though i have been sleeping more than normal. i even had a two hour nap today, but i am still tired. and sick...i just don't understand what on earth i could have that would make me sick for so long. although being sick might give reason as to why i have been so tired lately. i should just go to the doctor when i visit home this weekend. after this weekend, the next time i will be home will be for the entire summer. i have one application to turn in already for in-n-out; i really hope that i get my job there back. i mean, i know it has been a while since i worked for them, but i seriously worked everyday and i already know most of the days i have to have special schedules because of my summer babysitting job or when my parents are going to washington for a 3rd honeymoon. awww....i swear my parents are adorable.
but i still can't wait to get home. school has been serious hell the past couple of weeks. it is like i have been outsed from my normal group of friends or something. i have no idea what happened. did i do something wrong? because if i did, i would like to know what that something was. i mean, i know they are all roommates or neighbors, but that doesn't mean i can't be involved with what they do. they barely even talk to me anymore and it is making me miserable. at least lauren and her friends have been including me in their activities lately. i just don't understand, is there something wrong with me? because i am not a vegitarian or a stout liberal...is that why they haven't been talking to me. is it cause they found out i was drunk over spring break, cause for crying out loud, that was the one and only time i was drunk. for once i had fun with my high school friends. it is my life and i should be able to do what i want. and i wasnt even that drunk, i could have been worse. just because you don't drink, doesn't give you the right to judge me on one of the few times i have. good fucking god. don't get me wrong, i love this school, i just can't handle the drama anymore. it is worse than high school ever was.
and it is even visible back home. i hate how people say they miss me and we make plans to see each other, but then they cancel those plans. i mean, if you really don't want to see me, then don't say you miss me. and why do i always have to be the one who holds our friendships together? why me? is it really that hard to look up my number in the phone and press call? i really don't think so.
meh. i feel ill.
fucking hormones.