thoughts upon waking up..
so...
i think it is amazing how i can't decide things anymore. i have these wonderful friends who are by my side and i wonder why i never knew people like them before. they dont just give me the answer that i want to hear, but the answer i need to hear. i never before knew anyone as brutally honest as aaron. but i need someone like him in my life.
and then i have the people who were always around me but i never took the time to notice...jake for instance. i know it may be a bit unconventional for me to hang out with him. but i think my caring for what people think about me went out the window about the time high school was out of the picture.
but there is something i have found entertaining and intersting over this spring break....when you see someone you havent seen or talked to in a while...they always ask for you to call them. as if they are glad to see you but that is enough for them. why is it always me who has to make the phone call. if you care so much to see or hang out with me while i am visiting home, why dont you call me for once. i dont know; it is just something i have seen lately. especially with my adventures of the ec campus over lunch break.
but over this break...i dont know.. i have come to see a lot of things. i remembered how much i love my sisters, that we can get along, we just dont always want to. i saw how much i may dislike my extended family...but it is becuase we are so fucking similar and they want to know each and every detail of my life. then there is this town....i think it is only once you leave the place where you grew up that you learn to appriciate it. at least that is what happened for me. whittier is shit. and so are the outlaying towns. but oceanside and the surrounding towns..i love them as lame and idiotic as that sounds.
i dont know. i shouldnt talk when i first wake up in the morning...
i think it is amazing how i can't decide things anymore. i have these wonderful friends who are by my side and i wonder why i never knew people like them before. they dont just give me the answer that i want to hear, but the answer i need to hear. i never before knew anyone as brutally honest as aaron. but i need someone like him in my life.
and then i have the people who were always around me but i never took the time to notice...jake for instance. i know it may be a bit unconventional for me to hang out with him. but i think my caring for what people think about me went out the window about the time high school was out of the picture.
but there is something i have found entertaining and intersting over this spring break....when you see someone you havent seen or talked to in a while...they always ask for you to call them. as if they are glad to see you but that is enough for them. why is it always me who has to make the phone call. if you care so much to see or hang out with me while i am visiting home, why dont you call me for once. i dont know; it is just something i have seen lately. especially with my adventures of the ec campus over lunch break.
but over this break...i dont know.. i have come to see a lot of things. i remembered how much i love my sisters, that we can get along, we just dont always want to. i saw how much i may dislike my extended family...but it is becuase we are so fucking similar and they want to know each and every detail of my life. then there is this town....i think it is only once you leave the place where you grew up that you learn to appriciate it. at least that is what happened for me. whittier is shit. and so are the outlaying towns. but oceanside and the surrounding towns..i love them as lame and idiotic as that sounds.
i dont know. i shouldnt talk when i first wake up in the morning...