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every night i lie awake thinking about why i feel the way i do. at times i can be so happy and then the next minute i feel as if part of me is missing. i feel so empty inside, and i want to fill up that void. but i guess i need to first figure out why i feel so hollow inside-what part of me is missing.
i mean, i cant even write anymore. everything i say sounds completely stupid. and that can't be good since i have a research paper due in a week and i haven't even started yet. oh well i will do that tonight, i will start tonight.
i can't wait to go home, at least at home i have some sort of normal feelings.
i guess i miss my oceanside friends....no i miss them terribly. brian, kris, krysten...
i mean i know they can make it on without me, but my life feels so empty without them.
but don't get me wrong, i have met some amazing people out here, they are some of the nicest people i have ever met....but i dont know...they arent my home friends.
i guess i just need to let time take over as i get used to the changes.
i mean, i cant even write anymore. everything i say sounds completely stupid. and that can't be good since i have a research paper due in a week and i haven't even started yet. oh well i will do that tonight, i will start tonight.
i can't wait to go home, at least at home i have some sort of normal feelings.
i guess i miss my oceanside friends....no i miss them terribly. brian, kris, krysten...
i mean i know they can make it on without me, but my life feels so empty without them.
but don't get me wrong, i have met some amazing people out here, they are some of the nicest people i have ever met....but i dont know...they arent my home friends.
i guess i just need to let time take over as i get used to the changes.