so early
morning! i still have to wake up john for theatre soon. i am tired again. i slept for 7 hrs. i guess thats ok. the last 2 nites i just feel very broken. i look around at all my friends and everyone seems whole. they all seem as if theyre not missing much in their life, and so many times i feel like i am. thats pretty sad i suppose. jason and i are talking a lot more, but it is very hard for me to get used to the changes in our friendship from last semester. he likes another girl, too. that doesnt bother me as if i still like him, bc i dont, but i just feel odd about some things right now. knowing how great he is, he will soon be dating her and i will be cast in the shadows, and i cant do that again. im really scared. i still dont know exactly y we stopped talking, and i just cant let it happen again. i have a huge spanish oral today, so we will have 2 see how this goes. i practiced with pete for a long time last nite, which was very helpful. i need someone normal to like me, someone i like back. this loneliness gets worse and worse every single day. well, have a good day~~~ tty: