Almost A Year..
So, I haven't written in here in almost a year. That's insane! I had a random inspiration to pull this up again out of nowhere. I miss using this. It's a way to remember things, since I have the worst memory EVER! So, I guess I will start with my 18th birthday?
It was on Thanksgiving this year, which was pretty weird. My grandparents came over for dinner. Then Kaydee Lauren Bree Christian and Mike came over for cake and all. It didn't really feel like my birthday at all. We just hungout in my room then everyone left and me and Mike hungout at the beach.
The next day was my "party." It was okay. It was me, Mike, Kaydee, Lauren, Bre, Christian, Ramos, Joanna, Marilyn, Mikey, and Chris. I think that was it?? We just listned to music ate and bullshitted.
Mike took me whale watching the next day. Most amazing romantic thing ever! I was ecstatic, even though I pretty much knew, even though it was supposed to be a surprise =[. Words can't describe how happy he makes me, even though it gets kinda difficult at times. I can't believe we've been together since April. That's insane ! It feels like it's new, but yet I feel like I've known him forever.
This year has been very blah and unrealistic. I'm so sure my mom's pregnant. I have no idea of how to act about it. I feel like everything in my life is changing, yet everything's in a stalemate. I'm kinda
numb to alot of things and I can't really help it. But, I am sick of being depressed. I have no reason to be depressed at all, and I'm definelty working on improving myself. I cannot believe 10 days till Christmas! I still need to get Lauren, Mike, and Mikey presents. It really doesn't feel like Christmas, I'm pretty upset. But I guess alot of things are numb to me this year.
My stomach ailment has been bothering me alot. basically I'm only allowed to eat carbs, which means I'm gonna get fat. But I'm getting a gym membership to help.
It feels so nice to get my thoughts out! Even if I am the only person reading this. I don't have a clue of what to do about college. So for now, I'm just gonna pretend like my life isn't gonna drastically change in 6 months.
I need to work on relationships with friends. I hungout with Kaydee and Meg today for the first ime on forever. It felt soo nice. Lately I've been to myself, which make sme more depressed. Definetly going to break this cycle.
I screwed my hair royally. It was beautiful, long, and blonde, and then I dyed it brown. I tried going bacl blonde, but it looks weird. And I had to cut it all off cause it was so fried. Lovely.
These are all such random thoughts. Oh well.
It was on Thanksgiving this year, which was pretty weird. My grandparents came over for dinner. Then Kaydee Lauren Bree Christian and Mike came over for cake and all. It didn't really feel like my birthday at all. We just hungout in my room then everyone left and me and Mike hungout at the beach.
The next day was my "party." It was okay. It was me, Mike, Kaydee, Lauren, Bre, Christian, Ramos, Joanna, Marilyn, Mikey, and Chris. I think that was it?? We just listned to music ate and bullshitted.
Mike took me whale watching the next day. Most amazing romantic thing ever! I was ecstatic, even though I pretty much knew, even though it was supposed to be a surprise =[. Words can't describe how happy he makes me, even though it gets kinda difficult at times. I can't believe we've been together since April. That's insane ! It feels like it's new, but yet I feel like I've known him forever.
This year has been very blah and unrealistic. I'm so sure my mom's pregnant. I have no idea of how to act about it. I feel like everything in my life is changing, yet everything's in a stalemate. I'm kinda
numb to alot of things and I can't really help it. But, I am sick of being depressed. I have no reason to be depressed at all, and I'm definelty working on improving myself. I cannot believe 10 days till Christmas! I still need to get Lauren, Mike, and Mikey presents. It really doesn't feel like Christmas, I'm pretty upset. But I guess alot of things are numb to me this year.
My stomach ailment has been bothering me alot. basically I'm only allowed to eat carbs, which means I'm gonna get fat. But I'm getting a gym membership to help.
It feels so nice to get my thoughts out! Even if I am the only person reading this. I don't have a clue of what to do about college. So for now, I'm just gonna pretend like my life isn't gonna drastically change in 6 months.
I need to work on relationships with friends. I hungout with Kaydee and Meg today for the first ime on forever. It felt soo nice. Lately I've been to myself, which make sme more depressed. Definetly going to break this cycle.
I screwed my hair royally. It was beautiful, long, and blonde, and then I dyed it brown. I tried going bacl blonde, but it looks weird. And I had to cut it all off cause it was so fried. Lovely.
These are all such random thoughts. Oh well.