love stinks
there are somethings in life that you'll never forget and that will never leave you alone no matter how hard you try to push them away. i guess ive just realized this. unfortunetely...
this is probably why involved important relationships arent meant to happen until we're older and able to cope with shit. i didn't mean to fall this hard. but i did, i dont even know why but now theres no way im getting over him and it hurts so bad. i guess i knew that it wouldnt last forever i just chose not to think about what would happen after it was over, and thats what killed me... now i cant handle it and it haunts me every night in my dreams - or i guess theyre nightmares.
i guess its not that big a deal, i guess ill be able to move on at somepoint but right now i just can't and its been like 4 months... how long will it take. i meant everything i ever said to him and now even though he didnt mean to hurt me, even though we're still friends (on some level), even though it wouldnt have worked out, i feel like everything ive said, all of the things that i thought meant something have been slapped back in my face.
im only 14 itll get better right. sure whatever you say. everything happens for a reason right.. sure i beleive it. i dont want to wait. i want to feel better now. i miss him so much, and i miss who i was with him. i miss everything about him and the only thing i want right now is him back here holding me.
maybe thats what ill put on my christmas list... yeah right.. bullshit
this is probably why involved important relationships arent meant to happen until we're older and able to cope with shit. i didn't mean to fall this hard. but i did, i dont even know why but now theres no way im getting over him and it hurts so bad. i guess i knew that it wouldnt last forever i just chose not to think about what would happen after it was over, and thats what killed me... now i cant handle it and it haunts me every night in my dreams - or i guess theyre nightmares.
i guess its not that big a deal, i guess ill be able to move on at somepoint but right now i just can't and its been like 4 months... how long will it take. i meant everything i ever said to him and now even though he didnt mean to hurt me, even though we're still friends (on some level), even though it wouldnt have worked out, i feel like everything ive said, all of the things that i thought meant something have been slapped back in my face.
im only 14 itll get better right. sure whatever you say. everything happens for a reason right.. sure i beleive it. i dont want to wait. i want to feel better now. i miss him so much, and i miss who i was with him. i miss everything about him and the only thing i want right now is him back here holding me.
maybe thats what ill put on my christmas list... yeah right.. bullshit