give up

[fallinfrenzies]

Sometimes i really think this whole realtion ship is going nowhere.....
I am so greedy to ask for the things i do.
and to expect him to be a mind reader.
He trys i know he is just turning into somthing i know i don't want.
I want the perfect match. as god damn cleche as that sounds i do.
He wants me to talk abou my problems.
Fuck he doesn't need to know every flawed detail of my over long exsistence.
I am just sick of it.
I talked to him last night and pretty much said don't call me untill you have something
worth while to say.
And hearing that he was flirting with some chick at a concert didn't escpically make me overjoyed.
I am frustrated with him. He expects me to tell him every thing when i have a problem telling him the slightest little thing.
I know this is stupid and rather quote on quote retarted..
but i am just so sick of this, evey ones tells me to not give up.
that i am just giving up
well maybe i am...
I give up...
on alan
my mother
my grandmother
and my faith...
allgone
good bye.......

maybe he just needs to treat me like his girlfriend
not his friend.
maybe he just needs to be a bit more honest with me
maybe
i ask to much.............
yea i think i do....

whatever..........

peace