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So alot shit has hit the fucking fan...
I am lost.
But who isn't?
Alan and I are good but i just wonder when that fails...
I really hope it doesn't i just know me... I know when things
get bad.. I ESCAPE...
Hope i won't try to...
So... Mike and Leeanna are great.
Kinda makes me feel like shit cause Alan and I are having some problems.
Nothing thats not fixable...
but still....
me and heather got into a fight..
HEATHER: YOU ARE TO INVOLVED IN YOU FAMILY PROBLEMS..
ME:WHAT THE FUCK ELSE AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WHEN MY GRANDMOTHER IS DIEING...
HEATHER:DON'T CONCERN YOURSLEF WITH IT.
ME: WHATEVER....
HEATHER:DON'T PUSH OFF YOU EMOTIONS.
ME:I AM PUSHING YOU OFF...
ME HANG UP...
TO MUCH DAMN DRAMA...
I TOLD ALAN ABOUT ME CUTTING A FEW DAYS AGO..
HE ALREADY KNEW BUT...
HE DIDN'T KNOW HOW INTO IT I WAS.
ALMOST BROKEUP WITH HIM...
HE WAS FREAKED.....
I CAN'T BE WITH OUT HIM...
HE IS MY BETTER HALF...
MY LESS DRAMTIC HALF...
it scares me that i am so damn close with him..
he knows everything.
its scary knowing that somthing could happen and that support and love would be gone....
I still have great friends.
Mike and Toria...
Toria and me we talking and we talk about
and ourselves going through problems..
she is the best...
Mike always calls me telling me how much he misses leeanna...
god...
I LIVE IN A DIFFERENT STATE AS MY BOYFRIEND...
GET OVER IT..
jesus.
whatever.. doesn't make the pain stop...
fuck it
whatever i am done..
I am lost.
But who isn't?
Alan and I are good but i just wonder when that fails...
I really hope it doesn't i just know me... I know when things
get bad.. I ESCAPE...
Hope i won't try to...
So... Mike and Leeanna are great.
Kinda makes me feel like shit cause Alan and I are having some problems.
Nothing thats not fixable...
but still....
me and heather got into a fight..
HEATHER: YOU ARE TO INVOLVED IN YOU FAMILY PROBLEMS..
ME:WHAT THE FUCK ELSE AM I SUPPOSE TO DO WHEN MY GRANDMOTHER IS DIEING...
HEATHER:DON'T CONCERN YOURSLEF WITH IT.
ME: WHATEVER....
HEATHER:DON'T PUSH OFF YOU EMOTIONS.
ME:I AM PUSHING YOU OFF...
ME HANG UP...
TO MUCH DAMN DRAMA...
I TOLD ALAN ABOUT ME CUTTING A FEW DAYS AGO..
HE ALREADY KNEW BUT...
HE DIDN'T KNOW HOW INTO IT I WAS.
ALMOST BROKEUP WITH HIM...
HE WAS FREAKED.....
I CAN'T BE WITH OUT HIM...
HE IS MY BETTER HALF...
MY LESS DRAMTIC HALF...
it scares me that i am so damn close with him..
he knows everything.
its scary knowing that somthing could happen and that support and love would be gone....
I still have great friends.
Mike and Toria...
Toria and me we talking and we talk about
and ourselves going through problems..
she is the best...
Mike always calls me telling me how much he misses leeanna...
god...
I LIVE IN A DIFFERENT STATE AS MY BOYFRIEND...
GET OVER IT..
jesus.
whatever.. doesn't make the pain stop...
fuck it
whatever i am done..