Aug 07, 2005 20:28
I am very tired and worn down. Been working a lot and now am fully capable of starting my new job. But I dont know if I want it or not. My sister told me I need to do what makes me happy, but I dont know if this is going to make me happy or not. What is happiness anyway? Is it a state of mind, a feeling, or an idea? I wouldnt know because I dont get to much happiness in my life. Especially now that my girl has gone off to college and I am left here with the guys. I am now back to square one. I am not to sure where I am going or whats going to be there when I get there...but i bet its going to be a downard.
Had a terrible night last night. Its one that started out great but took a down hill approach fast. oh god..
Down and Out...Playing the hand I was dealt and its a losing one...Im all in.