This Changes Everything
So, I pretty much have to wipe away everything. Start over new, change my whole philosophy on just what my life is and has been to this point. Its kind of random to know that im going to have the last weekend of our lives together documented forever as an ECC video. Im going to be honest and say i probably wont watch that one for quite awhile. It probably wont be very easy, but sometimes thats just the way it is.
The hustlaz had our first actual intramural game tonight. We lost, but who cares. We all played our asses off. I met new people, Joe and Alex. Theyre both some pretty good players, and im glad to have them on the team. I learned something about brian last week and tonight. Hes a pretty damn good goalie. I wish him the best of luck in LAX this year.
Soccer was something that was missing from my life. That is for sure. I just dont get that high anywhere else. Its something unexplainable. The brotherhood on the field, the comrodery.. and the rivalry and competition, all wrapped up in one. I decided this is one thing i cant live without in my life. I right now am stating, that I will play cabrini soccer in my sophomore year.
The last time that I was really down about life.. I made a decision. Looking back it was probably very irrational, but i am glad i did it. Im talking about the marathon. Ive never actually mentioned the whole reason behind it until now. It was the begining of junior year, I was well, in a similar state of mind, when Jamie hit me with it.. lets to a marathon. I said yes ill do it, before i knew what was going on, where we were running or anything. I dont know if i would have done something like a marathon if i were in another state of mind, but at that very moment, i wanted it. And i carried that along until the day i actually completed it.
Well folks, this is a whole nother monster. Im climbing two mountains. Mount Washington first. Than Mount Rainier.
Its time i show myself what im made of.
I read something not too long ago. It said that a taurus has a hard time accepting change. I thought for a long time about it, and maybe that is true. Ive had such a hard time thinking about all of the things that went down this weekend. But you know what, its up to me now. To become the person i want to be, to defy my limits. I really have not been totally satisfied with myself since i have been here, maybe even through the summer as well.
forgive me for these next few months, maybe even years.
The hustlaz had our first actual intramural game tonight. We lost, but who cares. We all played our asses off. I met new people, Joe and Alex. Theyre both some pretty good players, and im glad to have them on the team. I learned something about brian last week and tonight. Hes a pretty damn good goalie. I wish him the best of luck in LAX this year.
Soccer was something that was missing from my life. That is for sure. I just dont get that high anywhere else. Its something unexplainable. The brotherhood on the field, the comrodery.. and the rivalry and competition, all wrapped up in one. I decided this is one thing i cant live without in my life. I right now am stating, that I will play cabrini soccer in my sophomore year.
The last time that I was really down about life.. I made a decision. Looking back it was probably very irrational, but i am glad i did it. Im talking about the marathon. Ive never actually mentioned the whole reason behind it until now. It was the begining of junior year, I was well, in a similar state of mind, when Jamie hit me with it.. lets to a marathon. I said yes ill do it, before i knew what was going on, where we were running or anything. I dont know if i would have done something like a marathon if i were in another state of mind, but at that very moment, i wanted it. And i carried that along until the day i actually completed it.
Well folks, this is a whole nother monster. Im climbing two mountains. Mount Washington first. Than Mount Rainier.
Its time i show myself what im made of.
I read something not too long ago. It said that a taurus has a hard time accepting change. I thought for a long time about it, and maybe that is true. Ive had such a hard time thinking about all of the things that went down this weekend. But you know what, its up to me now. To become the person i want to be, to defy my limits. I really have not been totally satisfied with myself since i have been here, maybe even through the summer as well.
forgive me for these next few months, maybe even years.