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yeah so ok im still doin fucking home work im goin to run away and never come back... and im babysitting... this sux. yeah and he's tearing my room apart. solike ok im not even in the door for 5 minutes i say hello to my mom and she all ready i saying that i look all gothic and crap and she starts another fight, that she lost like always, and we all know, cuz she started bringing school into it and my grades, and if the ppl i hang out w/ have no influence on me, then why do my grades suck? uhm just a qhuestion... she failed everything besides votech, which she got an a in. my grades arent that bad or so i hope/think anyways. but yeah just find it funny that she screams at me for doin bad in school when i have depression, i cant concentrate,i dont sleep at all, thats why i go out at 1 in the morning... i have nothing better to do anyways, i'm starting to get a mom after 16 years, not really though, and i dont know what it's like to have a true family... maybe thats why i used to so so good inb school, i didnt realize it and if i did i chose to ignore it. but now i relize its not normal, and i just cant ignore it anymore. hmm could that be it??? and you think yelling at me about how i dress the way i do my hair/make up, the way i act, and who i am is going to make it a lot better.. HAHA i find that kinda comical. but anyways so yeah i was bored before and i gave myslef a tattoo of a heart sorta thing using a black shaprie black pen, razor blade, bent thumb tack, and a safety pin. it was interesting just watching the pins/blade penetrate my skin as i scratched it away, and the black ink just sort of absorb into it, saok it up, and stain my skin. yeah its pretty intense. it kinda burns though, but its ok lol but yeah i have to once again do more fuckin homework so w/e buh bye.