*yawwwn*
Well today has been decent so far. I was just leaving the store with my gram and CC called so I went over there and was there till after 2. I came home, watched what was left of the Packer game, and now I just got home from giving the puppy a walk. I really didn't feel like going out in the cold but my mom's b/f is home and @#%@#%@%. I'm so gahh right now. Sad...naww...upset...naww...indescribable is more like it. Something honestly hasta be wrong with me. One second I'm fine with all that is happening, the next second I have all the death thoughts and the crying and all that. What is wrrrrrong with me!?!?! Right now I'm thinking about pursuing the running away thing, yah CC said he will never talk to me again but I dunno, he's moving and plus now we are falling apart so I dunno. Another thing is him moving. Everyday in my mind I just act out the last time we see each other, how are you supposed to react to something like that?!?! It's not like we are going to break up and I get to see him all the time, it's we have to be broken up by moving and no1 should have to do that but oh well fuck it he doesn't seem to care about how I feel about it so why should I.