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i want so much more out of life. i know what i want; i see it in other people, i read it, i hear about it. i just don't know where to get it.
i would be happy if everyone i loved would stop leaving me. if everyone i loved would just stay put, or come live here, or something, i would be happy. i hate how the people i love the most, the people who actually love me back, are the people i see monthly, yearly, even less than yearly.
something really, really needs to change. i just wish i knew what. or how.
i think i just need friends.