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so i go "home" today. the concept of home is a strange one to me, because i feel like i have so many & so few all at the same time. like i've said before, home is where the heart is & my heart is a million different places at once.
i don't know what i'm going to do for four months. mukilteo is not exactly my sanctuary. some of that is my fault (like being so shy & intimidated all throughout high school) & some of it is not (my friends all ditching me in eigth grade, people making fun of me, etc). i'm not used to spending so much time alone, but i guess it's time i get used to it again.
i have things to look forward to: in a few days, i'll be in georgia with two of my sisters (not biological, but who cares?), i'll hopefully have a decent job in a few weeks, i'll be driving my car again, i'll get the chance to finally go through all my things and get rid of stuff. i'll be making pilgrimages to bothell and the u-district to see michelle and renee & jen. there are plans for a road trip to spokompton whenever we get the chance. i have family coming to visit at some point.
it's only three and a half months, then it's back to uw and back to the way of life i've become accustomed to. it'll be different, because i won't be living with the same people, but it'll be good all the same.
i'm dreading august, because august is the month in which everyone always leaves me. this year, it's my boyfriend. it's cool, though. i'll get to write lots of letters (hey, gotta look at the bright side of shit like this).
i'm done. i'm officially finished with my first year of college, and about to begin my last four months in mukilteo. next summer, i'll be sitting on my own front porch with my friends in our own little house in the u-district drinking beer and shootin' the breeze. mark my words.