Jesus.
Yeah so it's definately been a while.
But I'm just gunna act like it hasnt.
Michael, my boyfriend. Is amazing. We fight too much and we've already gotten ourselves into some trouble but I dont really care. I love him and I don't recall ever feeling this way for anyone. It's like. When we're not together he's all I can think about and all that I want. And when we are together it just feels right. Gah. I was with him this morning and miss him already. I'm pathetic.
I feel like such a failure sometimes. I'm grounded for like a month, so I wont be able to see laura or michael until like my birthday. Maybe it's for the best. I'll be able to get myself back on track and in good with my mom and my friends, like Gary and Jayson and James again. It's wierd how everything you do affects so many people. Hurts people. The ones that you love the most. I hate that shit. I dunno. Maybe Im just babbling.
Basically, this is my life at the moment:
no privelages, except being on the phone until 10 and up until 11. I cant go anywhere and I can do virtually nothing. the only reason I still have my car is because I have to cart my little sister around all over the place. School sucks BIG time. I think Im failing like 2 classes and it's really hard to get caught up because I was stupid first quarter. Michael and I are actually getting along really well for once. Im hoping it lasts a while because I hate fighting with him... making up is always good, though. None of my friends like Laura. I know shes not necisarilly good for me but I love her. This month long break might be good for us. Make us a little less attached. Cuz I seriously have lost sight of a lot of things because of her lately, and the things we do together, drug wise. I dunno. Gah.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.<3.
But I'm just gunna act like it hasnt.
Michael, my boyfriend. Is amazing. We fight too much and we've already gotten ourselves into some trouble but I dont really care. I love him and I don't recall ever feeling this way for anyone. It's like. When we're not together he's all I can think about and all that I want. And when we are together it just feels right. Gah. I was with him this morning and miss him already. I'm pathetic.
I feel like such a failure sometimes. I'm grounded for like a month, so I wont be able to see laura or michael until like my birthday. Maybe it's for the best. I'll be able to get myself back on track and in good with my mom and my friends, like Gary and Jayson and James again. It's wierd how everything you do affects so many people. Hurts people. The ones that you love the most. I hate that shit. I dunno. Maybe Im just babbling.
Basically, this is my life at the moment:
no privelages, except being on the phone until 10 and up until 11. I cant go anywhere and I can do virtually nothing. the only reason I still have my car is because I have to cart my little sister around all over the place. School sucks BIG time. I think Im failing like 2 classes and it's really hard to get caught up because I was stupid first quarter. Michael and I are actually getting along really well for once. Im hoping it lasts a while because I hate fighting with him... making up is always good, though. None of my friends like Laura. I know shes not necisarilly good for me but I love her. This month long break might be good for us. Make us a little less attached. Cuz I seriously have lost sight of a lot of things because of her lately, and the things we do together, drug wise. I dunno. Gah.
I think you lost what you loved in that mess of details.<3.