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so ive been almost having these crazy panic attacks lately. but ive been calming myself out of them. i think that im starting to realize that i really need to start like, having a real plan. and its sort of freaking me out. especially because i sort of have a plan...well, im working in a job that most people would consider their career ,except that i really dont plan on doing hair forever. i dont want to and i really dont like it that much. and once i finish the course im taking right now, im going to be locked in my job for the next year and a half. and thats pretty scary for soemthing that you dont really like all that much and for soemthing that you dont plan on devoting the rest of your life to. i know that i want to go back to school. i know that. but anything more then that i really have no idea. i have no clue whatsoever what i want to do. i dont know what to study i dont know anything. i always said that ok ill just do hair and i can go to school at the same time and stuff. but like....if im only working a few days a week doing hair and going to school, im not going to be making any money whatsoever. my income will be based solely on commission and if im not taking enough clients then i wont be making shit. the girls who are working 40-50 hours a week who havent been stylists that long are barely making anything.
fjkghdg. life is dumb sometimes.
fjkghdg. life is dumb sometimes.