Thinking about life
Thinking about life...I guess the overall thing I really want is just to experience as much as I can. I don't ever want to feel as if I'm regressing. I always want to be doing something worthwhile and productive. Right now, at this moment- I feel that I will eventually be moving out of state and the thing I'm looking forward to most about that is the moment when I realize it really wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. It intimidates me but I know I can and will make it in life, it's just the path I take. Really- when people say "making it" in life...it's not like any one place is the endpoint. We all end up dead in the end so getting any "where" isn't really a good metaphor for it. Success and happiness mean something different to everyone and with the amount of people I have met in my life and brought close and associated with I'm wise enough to know there are about a million and a half ways to live happily and still have "made it". That's only speaking for life in Livonia and East Lansing, MI. I can only imagine what the rest of the world out there is really like. So far, I haven't 'regressed' or regretted anything that has happened up to this point. I guess I have to stop viewing the end of school as this monumental event (even though it is) that means now I have to grow up and have all the answers (because I most definitely do not). At this point-it looks like my near future might have a jumble of things combined. Maybe it won't be a steady jump into my career right off the bat. I might have some more classes to take, and a lower than entry level introduction into the industry and maybe more serving to pay bills. At least I'll know I'm 'making it' and doing what I can to support myself, and build myself career wise and character wise. To know I'm striving for something and not settling. I'm hoping to actually experience the world a little bit. Travel, see, know and understand something different than what I've been doing all these years. I think life would be that much more enriching. Still- It might be nice to know that was moving along and that I won't end up alone or unemployed in 10 years. I guess only time will tell!