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I'm so tired..of everything..I need a job..I need to lose weight..I'm sick of talking to people about it..I need to go to the doctor and I just sometimes could give 2 shits to even go. I know that's fucked up. I'm going to slowly try to change. I'm working on a list. I'm going to check one thing off at a time and just get it all done. Because I'm not happy and it's effecting me and Ashley..I have no real sex drive with her anymore..because I'm so unhappy with my self. I'm grumpy all the time. It's not fair to her for me to be like this. She needs to change a few things too...but she need guidance and I don't mind helping but I need her to take more on with out being a baby about it. I wish I could sleep! I'm never able to fall asleep anymore.UGH bitch bitch bitch lol I know..but that's what this is for..sorry to the 2 people that read this..
goodnight
goodnight