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It feels like October again. I did not like October very much. A lot of confusion and pain. I was rereading some of my Diaryland entries from October and I completely forgot about the time that I went a week without talking to John because I wanted to detach more. I couldn't handle not fitting into his schedule and getting mad when he couldn't squeeze me in.
Some people (me) never change.
I am finding out that when I feel pressured, I have a very short fuse. I kept kurking out during rehearsal, but only to my friends in order to vent. I would just spaz. I freaked out on John last night. Like, hardcore. It was not good at all.
I have no idea what to do.
I feel a list coming on. I'm big on lists nowadays.
Things I am looking forward to:
1. Thursday!
2. Bowling on Friday
3. Seeing Becca before Sunday
4. TURNING 18 ON SATURDAY!!!
5. Having my birthday dinner with family
6. Getting my prom dress this weekend
7. Visiting Penn State... and hopefully telling my parents that it's where I want to go
8. Seeing John. I'm hoping it helps things out.
9. Filming the Last 5 Years for MT3.
Ok. Thinking about that makes me somewhat happier. I'll be a lot happier when it all comes. :)
Some people (me) never change.
I am finding out that when I feel pressured, I have a very short fuse. I kept kurking out during rehearsal, but only to my friends in order to vent. I would just spaz. I freaked out on John last night. Like, hardcore. It was not good at all.
I have no idea what to do.
I feel a list coming on. I'm big on lists nowadays.
Things I am looking forward to:
1. Thursday!
2. Bowling on Friday
3. Seeing Becca before Sunday
4. TURNING 18 ON SATURDAY!!!
5. Having my birthday dinner with family
6. Getting my prom dress this weekend
7. Visiting Penn State... and hopefully telling my parents that it's where I want to go
8. Seeing John. I'm hoping it helps things out.
9. Filming the Last 5 Years for MT3.
Ok. Thinking about that makes me somewhat happier. I'll be a lot happier when it all comes. :)