More non-sense of love
Month later and I still can't help but laugh at the thought I am in love..with my friend. If you were to ask me 6 months ago or even before if I would even kiss or touch him I would have laughed and told you were hilarious for such a comment. Now I am the only one to laugh at myself for being such a proud stupid girl to think such things towards anyone.
I thought of you as I did any one with a penis even though you were my friend I still thought u were an idiot, giving girls stupid smiles and telling me you telling me I'm beautiful the last 3 yrs. Back then I laughed I thought it was all a joke, i didn't believe you. Now I believe every word, sigh, smile, and touch you do. You must think I'm so cocky when you say I love you and I reply "i know" because when you look at me that way with your eyes slighty glazed at me I can tell from your look your thinking about how you love me. It's the first time I've ever really saw that look..i've had boys, men tell me they love me but never with that look in their eyes..the look that makes me not able to stop starring at you to only hope i catch a glimpse of it.
I hope you know I mean it ..everytime even when I call you an ass. I love you for being an ass, I love you for being cheesy, and so emotional. I love you for things I use to detest about you. I love that your hair is red, that you have freckles on your shoulders, that your a foot and more taller than me. I love how my hand looks in yours, that you pick me up sometimes to kiss me..you do all the things i never wanted to experince. After that one time ..the time my heart was really broken i never wanted to love again to give that much of myself to one person..but now i can't help but want to give you every last breath in me.
You told me today you loved me no matter what the results were of the test (E.P.T) that meant so much. Most guys would be shittin their pants (i know you were poor thing) Many would have blamed the girl we both took responsiblity..we agree we are dumb! But you still looked at me even though your worried with the look of love like you could love me no matter what .....this is the only thing that scares me..not to get hurt..but to fall so utterly in love with you that I won't know what to do without you once you leave or I leave..
How is it that you tell someone you love them with everything you are ?!? It's really not easy as it should be..
I thought of you as I did any one with a penis even though you were my friend I still thought u were an idiot, giving girls stupid smiles and telling me you telling me I'm beautiful the last 3 yrs. Back then I laughed I thought it was all a joke, i didn't believe you. Now I believe every word, sigh, smile, and touch you do. You must think I'm so cocky when you say I love you and I reply "i know" because when you look at me that way with your eyes slighty glazed at me I can tell from your look your thinking about how you love me. It's the first time I've ever really saw that look..i've had boys, men tell me they love me but never with that look in their eyes..the look that makes me not able to stop starring at you to only hope i catch a glimpse of it.
I hope you know I mean it ..everytime even when I call you an ass. I love you for being an ass, I love you for being cheesy, and so emotional. I love you for things I use to detest about you. I love that your hair is red, that you have freckles on your shoulders, that your a foot and more taller than me. I love how my hand looks in yours, that you pick me up sometimes to kiss me..you do all the things i never wanted to experince. After that one time ..the time my heart was really broken i never wanted to love again to give that much of myself to one person..but now i can't help but want to give you every last breath in me.
You told me today you loved me no matter what the results were of the test (E.P.T) that meant so much. Most guys would be shittin their pants (i know you were poor thing) Many would have blamed the girl we both took responsiblity..we agree we are dumb! But you still looked at me even though your worried with the look of love like you could love me no matter what .....this is the only thing that scares me..not to get hurt..but to fall so utterly in love with you that I won't know what to do without you once you leave or I leave..
How is it that you tell someone you love them with everything you are ?!? It's really not easy as it should be..