will you come home and stop this pain tonite....
well last nite was uneventful. my freind was suppose to call me or something so we could go to harvard sq during the day but didnt....s
it was raing outside...and i hate the rain....so i rapped myself up in my puff, and just sat in the fucking computor chair that i fucking hate infront of this stupid peice of shit pc...and did fuckng nothing...but go onto stupid match.com, or ftj, thinking i could find someone...who cares, who just like me. who will love me for who i am...but ther is no one, i am pathetic..i hate feeling so alone....nothing compares to her..she was perfect.....no girl is her....none of them, have her lips, her hips...or her heart...i hate this....hes with her. i wish i was him, he so fucking lucky, and im sure she fucking happy, but im glad she is...even if it hurts...all i wnated was for her to be happy...i still fight to hold on to nothing...cuase well she was something, harry potter is coming up, so is camping....i bought some campign equipment..thinking she was coming,....i wonder if thats why she siad she couldnt make it..before we broke up. bla..i wish u were here..you were perfect in everyway.
well went to manray..hung out with freind, made new ones...hopeing so see someone, someone who likes me...lol didnt, cuase lol some girl from an adult website though is somewhat stalking me..which is creepy, yea i put my pic up somewhere just for kicks...and yea she adds me to her freinds list, then goes to the club.....and follows me around the club all night..fucking freak me out.....and to my car..trys talking to me...i mean its nice and all but the hell. im not ready...for that...im not sure i will ever be...my words of 2 yrs mean shit, well u will way so heavly on his words though...and out off alll this im still the asshole.
(by the way i will have new pics up soon, just as soon as i learn how to get them off this digital camera)
p.s im the asshole when it comes down 2 it...i fucked things up far before we broke up...i did stupid stuff.....she knows it.....i deserve it....thought we got past that...while we were togather..but.....in the end bring out all the bad things.....im just sorry for every inch of it. so dont htink she is the ass...i am....
it was raing outside...and i hate the rain....so i rapped myself up in my puff, and just sat in the fucking computor chair that i fucking hate infront of this stupid peice of shit pc...and did fuckng nothing...but go onto stupid match.com, or ftj, thinking i could find someone...who cares, who just like me. who will love me for who i am...but ther is no one, i am pathetic..i hate feeling so alone....nothing compares to her..she was perfect.....no girl is her....none of them, have her lips, her hips...or her heart...i hate this....hes with her. i wish i was him, he so fucking lucky, and im sure she fucking happy, but im glad she is...even if it hurts...all i wnated was for her to be happy...i still fight to hold on to nothing...cuase well she was something, harry potter is coming up, so is camping....i bought some campign equipment..thinking she was coming,....i wonder if thats why she siad she couldnt make it..before we broke up. bla..i wish u were here..you were perfect in everyway.
well went to manray..hung out with freind, made new ones...hopeing so see someone, someone who likes me...lol didnt, cuase lol some girl from an adult website though is somewhat stalking me..which is creepy, yea i put my pic up somewhere just for kicks...and yea she adds me to her freinds list, then goes to the club.....and follows me around the club all night..fucking freak me out.....and to my car..trys talking to me...i mean its nice and all but the hell. im not ready...for that...im not sure i will ever be...my words of 2 yrs mean shit, well u will way so heavly on his words though...and out off alll this im still the asshole.
(by the way i will have new pics up soon, just as soon as i learn how to get them off this digital camera)
p.s im the asshole when it comes down 2 it...i fucked things up far before we broke up...i did stupid stuff.....she knows it.....i deserve it....thought we got past that...while we were togather..but.....in the end bring out all the bad things.....im just sorry for every inch of it. so dont htink she is the ass...i am....