Sungmin's Diary - Prologue
Title: Sungmin's Diary
Pairing: KyuMin, HenMin, Past!QMi, SeoKyu, EunHae, YeWook, HanChul
Rating: PG - 13
Genre: Romance, Angst
Summary: What will you do, if you suddenly found out that you’ve already fallen into a guy, whose already has a girlfriend, and your best friend is his ex who’s still not over him?
Hello new diary, I’m Sungmin. Yeah I just bought you because my old pinky diary ran out of page.
August, 13, 2011
Dear diary, sometimes God just won’t let anything go smoothly. Even for the most perfect plan humans have ever made. And it all happens to my love life. Well, fuck.
I’m not the prettiest girl on earth. Nobody will agree on it. But let’s just say, I’m quite content with my own looks, despite the imperfections here and there. The last time I felt loved was long time ago. You know what? Now I even feel disgusted of myself, I feel very pathetic. I started to envy the girls who looked like they had found their so-called-love of their lives (even though in my opinion, it’s far, far, away from it) because they seemed so happy, so loved (at least Eunhyuk, Heechul and Mimi seemed giddy all the time) . Not that I don’t have someone to share, but really, having your best friend turned into your boyfriend is a little awkward, let alone we’re now having a long distance relationship. Oh don’t you know that I and Henry have been dating for some time now? But Henry moved to Canada We even live in different continents, with 11 hours time difference. The ironic fact is, I still feel lonely. Yes, and that’s the main point. I’m a lonely bitch.. I don’t want myself to turn into a cheat, because cheating has never been my cup of tea. But boy, loneliness sucks up my pride… I have known that since I first noticed myself turning into a flirting whore compared to my initial self.
But I guess I haven’t turned into a complete flirt. I don’t want to lose my pride. I’m this kind of girl; I have nothing else to defend except my pride. And my confidence.
Ironically, I do blab about confidence when I have none of it when it comes to self-loving.
It’s simple, I feel unloved.
P.S: I’mma telling you something. It’s secret. What would you do, if you suddenly found out that you’d already fallen into a guy, who already had a girlfriend, and your best friend’s his ex who’s still not over him? I found out that I had a crush towards Kyuhyun… my hoobae in the choir team. He’s Mimi’s ex, for God’s sake! Moreover he’s dating Seohyun now. People know how much she doesn’t like to share her ‘property’. But really, Kyuhyun attracts me so much. I kinda feel bad for Henry now. What am I doing, dear pinky? (Yes, your name is pinky now. Don’t say I’m not creative. I just love pink)
I’m not the type who can happily ignore my friend’s agony for my own happiness. I’m not a dementor, let alone a backstabber.
People may advise me to forget it; I have tried, because it actually hurts seeing the one you adore so much does not even bother to look at you for a second. And I don’t have enough guts to betray my friend and start flirting properly.
Oh, have I told you that ‘he’ is younger than me? That makes me more pathetic, isn’t it? Just one year but still…
……..I just can’t forget this feeling and sunk it to the deepest part of my brain so it never pops out again.
Sadly, (maybe) I’ve fallen too deep.
A/N: Should I continue it? Comments are loved :*
thanks for beta-ing Calie :D
Pairing: KyuMin, HenMin, Past!QMi, SeoKyu, EunHae, YeWook, HanChul
Rating: PG - 13
Genre: Romance, Angst
Summary: What will you do, if you suddenly found out that you’ve already fallen into a guy, whose already has a girlfriend, and your best friend is his ex who’s still not over him?
Hello new diary, I’m Sungmin. Yeah I just bought you because my old pinky diary ran out of page.
August, 13, 2011
Dear diary, sometimes God just won’t let anything go smoothly. Even for the most perfect plan humans have ever made. And it all happens to my love life. Well, fuck.
I’m not the prettiest girl on earth. Nobody will agree on it. But let’s just say, I’m quite content with my own looks, despite the imperfections here and there. The last time I felt loved was long time ago. You know what? Now I even feel disgusted of myself, I feel very pathetic. I started to envy the girls who looked like they had found their so-called-love of their lives (even though in my opinion, it’s far, far, away from it) because they seemed so happy, so loved (at least Eunhyuk, Heechul and Mimi seemed giddy all the time) . Not that I don’t have someone to share, but really, having your best friend turned into your boyfriend is a little awkward, let alone we’re now having a long distance relationship. Oh don’t you know that I and Henry have been dating for some time now? But Henry moved to Canada We even live in different continents, with 11 hours time difference. The ironic fact is, I still feel lonely. Yes, and that’s the main point. I’m a lonely bitch.. I don’t want myself to turn into a cheat, because cheating has never been my cup of tea. But boy, loneliness sucks up my pride… I have known that since I first noticed myself turning into a flirting whore compared to my initial self.
But I guess I haven’t turned into a complete flirt. I don’t want to lose my pride. I’m this kind of girl; I have nothing else to defend except my pride. And my confidence.
Ironically, I do blab about confidence when I have none of it when it comes to self-loving.
It’s simple, I feel unloved.
P.S: I’mma telling you something. It’s secret. What would you do, if you suddenly found out that you’d already fallen into a guy, who already had a girlfriend, and your best friend’s his ex who’s still not over him? I found out that I had a crush towards Kyuhyun… my hoobae in the choir team. He’s Mimi’s ex, for God’s sake! Moreover he’s dating Seohyun now. People know how much she doesn’t like to share her ‘property’. But really, Kyuhyun attracts me so much. I kinda feel bad for Henry now. What am I doing, dear pinky? (Yes, your name is pinky now. Don’t say I’m not creative. I just love pink)
I’m not the type who can happily ignore my friend’s agony for my own happiness. I’m not a dementor, let alone a backstabber.
People may advise me to forget it; I have tried, because it actually hurts seeing the one you adore so much does not even bother to look at you for a second. And I don’t have enough guts to betray my friend and start flirting properly.
Oh, have I told you that ‘he’ is younger than me? That makes me more pathetic, isn’t it? Just one year but still…
……..I just can’t forget this feeling and sunk it to the deepest part of my brain so it never pops out again.
Sadly, (maybe) I’ve fallen too deep.
A/N: Should I continue it? Comments are loved :*
thanks for beta-ing Calie :D