Deception...
The mother is pushing me over the edge....
it's funny how parents will make up any excuse to invade on your personal life these days. Take my mother for example. For some reason she always feels she has to look at everything I do even if that means going pass her boundries and invading territory.
I love the fact that she cant trust me enough to give me my personal space which she asks of me to for herself.
I swear week by week i get more and more depressed and stressed and my family doesnt take notice. Instead they think about if im having sex, am i drinking, am i doing drugs. Not once do they take notice that their daughter is getting sick, losing weight she shouldnt b losing, stressing out more and more as the days go on, how unhappy she is and since they always want her home they never once pay her any attention unless it deals with skool or track other than that you dont exist. Oh! the best part is when you get that attention it's because they found something to yell at you about and make you think that everything you do is wrong and it's going to be something she's going look back on in the future and say they were right and leave you to go into your room which is the only safe place for yourself to cry her eyes and heart out, to have her boyfriend have his heart ripped to pieces to hear his girlfriend so unhappy because he knows the life she's living and how it isnt good for her which will send her to an early grave. Sorry i started referring myself in a different person. I cant take it living under this roof anymore...it's getting worse and worse every day every week. I know im planning on moving out hopefully by summertime. So many different escapes have crossed my mind..why i havent taken one i dont know. Do they care? no. do they care about how much i cry? no Do they even remember my birth date? nope. I try to be at peace with life but these days get harder and harder.
it's funny how parents will make up any excuse to invade on your personal life these days. Take my mother for example. For some reason she always feels she has to look at everything I do even if that means going pass her boundries and invading territory.
I love the fact that she cant trust me enough to give me my personal space which she asks of me to for herself.
I swear week by week i get more and more depressed and stressed and my family doesnt take notice. Instead they think about if im having sex, am i drinking, am i doing drugs. Not once do they take notice that their daughter is getting sick, losing weight she shouldnt b losing, stressing out more and more as the days go on, how unhappy she is and since they always want her home they never once pay her any attention unless it deals with skool or track other than that you dont exist. Oh! the best part is when you get that attention it's because they found something to yell at you about and make you think that everything you do is wrong and it's going to be something she's going look back on in the future and say they were right and leave you to go into your room which is the only safe place for yourself to cry her eyes and heart out, to have her boyfriend have his heart ripped to pieces to hear his girlfriend so unhappy because he knows the life she's living and how it isnt good for her which will send her to an early grave. Sorry i started referring myself in a different person. I cant take it living under this roof anymore...it's getting worse and worse every day every week. I know im planning on moving out hopefully by summertime. So many different escapes have crossed my mind..why i havent taken one i dont know. Do they care? no. do they care about how much i cry? no Do they even remember my birth date? nope. I try to be at peace with life but these days get harder and harder.