i want you to love me (closed)
He tried so hard.
He tried so hard for so long, to make her see. He loved her from the moment he saw her, radiant and beautiful after his mother died, bright like the sun and the stars, her skin fair, her hair golden, so beautiful - and she turned away from him every time. And now she has again. How did he ever think she wouldn't?
Maeglin felt such hope when he saw her there, saw her here. It was like a second chance, wasn't it? Her - Tuor, and the venom with which he thinks that name has no limits, is not here. Just her, and him, and every chance, all the time to make things right, and even if he promised the Enemy -
But somehow, everything went wrong, and she pulled away from him, hatred and fear in her eyes, and he is left alone, not even understanding why. He remembers this feeling from the early days in Gondolin, not understanding why they looked at him with pity and sad understanding, and he didn't know why. It wasn't until much later that he understood that they looked at him like that because of his father.
His father who always ruined everything. Ruined his mother, ruined Maeglin's life, ruined ruined ruined-
He tried so hard, and yet again the world has left him down. Given him back Idril in reality, but only to torment with him. Eru, Eru ha! No, he has always known, hasn't he? The world never gives him anything, and it isn't about to start now.
OOC: Backdated to Idril's entrance, For family, particularly his mother and his sort-of uncle.
He tried so hard for so long, to make her see. He loved her from the moment he saw her, radiant and beautiful after his mother died, bright like the sun and the stars, her skin fair, her hair golden, so beautiful - and she turned away from him every time. And now she has again. How did he ever think she wouldn't?
Maeglin felt such hope when he saw her there, saw her here. It was like a second chance, wasn't it? Her - Tuor, and the venom with which he thinks that name has no limits, is not here. Just her, and him, and every chance, all the time to make things right, and even if he promised the Enemy -
But somehow, everything went wrong, and she pulled away from him, hatred and fear in her eyes, and he is left alone, not even understanding why. He remembers this feeling from the early days in Gondolin, not understanding why they looked at him with pity and sad understanding, and he didn't know why. It wasn't until much later that he understood that they looked at him like that because of his father.
His father who always ruined everything. Ruined his mother, ruined Maeglin's life, ruined ruined ruined-
He tried so hard, and yet again the world has left him down. Given him back Idril in reality, but only to torment with him. Eru, Eru ha! No, he has always known, hasn't he? The world never gives him anything, and it isn't about to start now.
OOC: Backdated to Idril's entrance, For family, particularly his mother and his sort-of uncle.