SSDD
Why do I work to live instead of live to work?
I believe that is what life is supposed to be. The quintessential life at least. Right now, my life is anything but quintessential. I am working at a job that I have no desire to advance in. I am living in a city that continually drains me of money and hinders me in saving anything. I am constantly reading for my thesis, but I have been able to put anything concrete on paper. And even when I think that I have read everything there is to read to write my thesis, I find more. It's a never-ending burden that I just can't seem to pacify. Why have I done this to myself? Why am I continually doing these things to myself? I wish that there were more hours in my day that I would be able to incorporate more things in my life. I wish that I was happy with my job. I wish that I was able to wake up every morning with a smile on my face with the realization that I am going to a job that I love and doing something that I am passionate about. I think that everyone should be in the employment of the job that they love. I don't understand why we continually do this to ourselves and live in our unhappiness. Is there something that we can do to actually change our redundant and mediocre lives? I keep questioning the reasons why I do the things that I do. Life is so short, so why be consistently unhappy and doing the things that I don't want to be doing? It just doesn't make sense to me. I always vow that I will eventually change it (or that I will change it sooner rather than later) but I never do. Why? What is the reason for this? I can't say. I am as lost as ever.
I am watching a really stupid movie right now. Who knew that a movie that had both John Cusak and Morgan Freeman in it was so bad? Never watch The Contract. Just don't waste your time with it. At all.