Lately...
I have noticed that I have been neglecting my livejournal lately. Though I have been posting the occasional meme, I have not been posting actual updates of my life. That is partially due to the fact that I have been writing in a different journal - one that my grandmother bought me the last time she was down here for a visit. It seems more intimate that way. And I just sit and write in it when I feel the need. And it doesn't take me the tedious amount of time as it does to turn on the computer and gather my thoughts enough to write within this computerized version. It's just a different type of journal with a different type of writing. It is also partially due to the fact that I don't feel compelled to write of my depression over and over again within this one. I feel as though people will realize soon enough that I have a problem, that I am depressed, and that I have some major issues right now that I am trying to deal with. The more I type it out, the more I believe it will be monotonous and redundant. And I do not like redundancy and I am refuse to admit that is what my life has started to become. It's rather...sad. But, I thought that it was due time to write a little diddy here today before I scamper off to a late breakfast at the beach. It's a really nice day out today and I tend to enjoy it as much as possible. Even if it does mean spending some money that I do not have, and denying the work of my thesis for one more day. I need some time to just enjoy myself in the sun. I never get to do that. I am always stuck in my cubicle. I never get sun. So, that is what my day is going to be about today. Sun. And fun.