I'm Alright.

[fallenhearts16]

Well today is my one of my old friends birthday today I should call her and say happy birthday it would help if I could find my cell phone though.Good news I will be getting paid soon to babysit my niece so I will have a nice income in.I'm finally 18 I guess I am happy about that.All of a sudden I feel so sick it came out of nowhere it started in the late afternoon I tried to eat a sandwhich I made and I threw it up.It was disgusting since I hardly ever get sick like that was pretty surprising I still feel queasy now.I had my birthday bash last sunday only the immediate family showed up and one of my closest friend's.I should be grateful that is more than alot of people get.This year I didn't try so hard to make everything perfect.Ya I was still dissappointed when some of the people who I was counting on to come didn't show up but after a couple of days I let it go.I mean hey if they really wanted to come they would have.So I shouldn't get upset if they don't make the effort.You never know what someone really thinks of you and you want to assume it's good but truthfully you will never know.Then again they could have had a good reason for missing it.I pretty much don't care about not having a boyfriend anymore for so long it bothered me but now I am glad to be single & safe.YES I still get lonely and long for another at times but overall I think I'm okay.Being in a relationship isn't everything(not that I been in a real one)from what I have learned it is alot of work.Right now I am not ready to be there for someone like that.I would never want to be the type of girl who needs someone to feel anything.I am not saying that I am happy but I am not depressed and only mildly sad so I guess I am getting there.

Signing Off,
+Sexy Forever+
xoxo