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I have done little in my lifetime. In twenty years, you aren't suppose to accomplish much. Unless you are an over-achiever, in which case, you are striving for something you will never attain. I don't want anything great, no fame or fortune. I find that I don't really want to be part of society anymore. I don't want to identify with a species that has been committing genocide since it's evolution and continues to every hour. Scientists question what leads a person to violence. We say it's part enviorment, part genetic disposition. But I don't that we've taken into account that a human is far more likely to kill another of it's same species then any other creature on the earth. I don't watch news anymore, rarely read the paper, and there much I like to listen on the radio. And I what escapes I do manage and even touched by the atrocities of society. Where in a person's mind do they find the reasoning to rape and kill a person who's had a sex change? Hostility isn't a word, it's a genetic code that we've had since evolving from an upright ape. We furthered the extinction of Homo Erectus and the Neandrotals that may not have occurred. But that wasn't enough. We've had to fight, enslave, and kill our own kind. Our basis of difference is that of skin color, language, and beliefs. How can that possibly be validated? There is no reason. I've lost so much faith in human kind and I don't know if it can truly be recovered. For every good deed, there are twenty bad ones. If we have a single person that can qualify for sainthood, we have hundreds that are nothing but demons. This is not balance. When innocents are killed by their friends for trying to live life as they see fit, there is something grossly wrong. I feel lost. I don't know what goals are worth having for a world where there is no justice.