because I know no one will read
I feel like crying. I keep thinking I'm so close to failing school because it's hard to move. I don't want to leave my house or talk to my friends and my body is keeping me in sleep because that's how it has learned to deal with pain.
I wonder.
What will you give me? will you treat me better then him? Will you hold me when I can do nothing but cry and rock and try and hurt myself? Will you always think I'm beautiful? Will little looks over my shoulder turn you on? Will you really listen to me when I have doubts? Can you hold me up and know that I will be stronger soon? Will you think it's cute when I blush at a kissing scene? Will you rub my feet without me asking? Will you let me have all the animals I could possibly want? Will you share my dreams? Can we make our own? Will you put me first? Will my family be important to you? Could you tell your family you want to marry me, if that's how you feel? Did you ever tell them in the first place? Will we still have things to say when we're comfortable? Can we always trust each other, no matter the threat? Will you ever second guess your feelings for me?
It's something that keeps me happy every day. I can feel him and we talk. I'm not sure what I would do without it. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow, this isn't working well for me.
I wonder.
What will you give me? will you treat me better then him? Will you hold me when I can do nothing but cry and rock and try and hurt myself? Will you always think I'm beautiful? Will little looks over my shoulder turn you on? Will you really listen to me when I have doubts? Can you hold me up and know that I will be stronger soon? Will you think it's cute when I blush at a kissing scene? Will you rub my feet without me asking? Will you let me have all the animals I could possibly want? Will you share my dreams? Can we make our own? Will you put me first? Will my family be important to you? Could you tell your family you want to marry me, if that's how you feel? Did you ever tell them in the first place? Will we still have things to say when we're comfortable? Can we always trust each other, no matter the threat? Will you ever second guess your feelings for me?
It's something that keeps me happy every day. I can feel him and we talk. I'm not sure what I would do without it. I'm going to call the doctor tomorrow, this isn't working well for me.