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i can't really explain my feelling. scared, excited, mental, fucking numb, retarted, sly, eager. all of them. for the past 6 years i've yelled about leaving here and now look where i am, leaving here and scared out of my mind. this is it. my life starts now. i'm not my parent's life anymore. whenever any of you miss me. think about how many people, things, places i have to miss. a lot more but please keep me in your heart. i'm sure if you're reading this or just skimming over it i've cared about you and will think about you again at one point in my life. i could never forget this town and don't want to. you've taught me everything i know. including how to be strong. i'm sorry to everyone that i've hurt, i'm sure it was a selfish act and i probably regret it, so i'm most likely hurting more than you. i'm sorry to all of the friendships that i've lost and never kept close to. i'm living now.
if you need me, my cell phone number is in my journal and there are ways to get my email.
Cara, thanks for listening to my shit.
if you need me, my cell phone number is in my journal and there are ways to get my email.
Cara, thanks for listening to my shit.