Love, life, and everything
Love is a game that I hate to play. A lot of my friends are having issues in their relationships or are having problems just trying to get into one. The only exception to this that I can think of, is Dale and Desi. They are as happy as can be with each other.
Richard is having one heck of a time with this massive love triangle that he has somehow managed to get himself into. Kayge has gone through a couple of guys since we broke up and is now dating someone who shattered her heart before and whom she was originally dating because she felt sorry for him. Natalee is now dating a guy, shortly after breaking up with a long term boyfriend, who is not really there for her and the only thing they share in common is sex. As far as I can tell that also applies to Stacy and her boyfriend. I am not sure what is going on with Elisha right now, as I havn't seen anything since she was hanging out with that one guy and stuff like that doesn't tend to come up in our conversations.
In the past few years I have dated a girl from Canada named Tiffany who used me to make her boyfriend jealous enough to come back to her and if that didn't work out I would be a decent second prize. I had no idea about that at the time and was only made aware of the fact after he came back to her. Then there was Amy...she and I dated for a good while and have been flirting since I met her when she and her sister moved to Missouri from Texas. That relationship ended when she went away to college because she didn't really like me. She dated me because she wanted me to not be so down in the dumps and she had no other options at the time, but when it came time for her to go off to college, she decided that she didn't need to be tied down anymore and told me that all the times she told me that she loved me had been a lie.
After that I got back together with Kayge, whom I love very much and always will. When we first got back together, there was a lot of tension between us and other people due to the age difference. We worked through it all and had a lot of good times in the mix, then right when everything was settling down she left me. Our families finally accepted the relationship, the people at church stopped watching us to make sure we didn't do anything wrong, and she was about to turn seventeen so that the state would have no problem with it. On valentine's day though, I am suddenly to old and not at all what she wants.
I just don't understand why soo many of us are having these problems. Is it too much to ask, to just have a little happiness and peace?
I now have three girls that I am interested in, and as far as I know (recurring theme there) none of them are interested in me or available. One of them is a girl I know from work named Misty. She is a student that is doing her clinicals with our radiology department and I see her in the OR when we need them to do our images. She is attractive to me in the physical sense, but more than that she is extremely intelligent and very motivated. She works a full time job, goes to school, and still has time to do her clinicals at the hospital.
Then there is Kayge. Yep that's right my ex. Not only is she dating someone right now, but she practiclly did everything in her power to through me out of her life, and only accepted me as a friend when she realized that due to commitments we have both made, that it was impossible for us to avoid each other. I will always love her though, and unless I was dating someone that I liked a lot, I doubt that I could turn her down if she ever wanted me back.
Girl number three I have never met in person. She makes me laugh and smile, and I worry about her when I hear of things in her life. We talk on occasion when we see each other online, but due to our schedules that is maybe once or twice a week at best. I saw her online the other morning right before going to work. I had only intended to say hi and chit chat for fifteen min so I could leave with plenty of time to get to work. Almost an hour later I realized what time it was and had to finish getting my shoes and such on while saying goodbye and speed to get to work less late than I would have. I feel like I know her pretty well, and she knows me better than even a majority of my friends because I just feel so comfortable talking to her. Our wants and needs at this point in our life seem to be very similar, but alas...she lives a few hours away and I don't even know if she likes me or not. She turned me down the only time I ever tried to ask her out.
But hey, such is life. It is one big giant test to see how much you can take and what you can handle. You get pulled to your limits and then some with the promise that if you can make it through there will be a prize at the end of it all. The one thing I could use to help me make it through is love, I am just not sure if I can keep playing that game. Every time I try, I get burned it hurts worse and takes longer to heal. I just need to have someone to hold, smile at, and hear their voice say that it will all be alright.
-Dark
When the sun came up
We were sleeping in
Sunk inside our blankets
Sprawled across the bed, and we
were dreaming
There are moments when
When I know it and
The world revolves around us
And we're keeping it
Keep it all going
This delicate balance
Vulnerable, all knowing
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would kill for this
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would
Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
We're glad for what we've got
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out
Right in front of us
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would
Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
Richard is having one heck of a time with this massive love triangle that he has somehow managed to get himself into. Kayge has gone through a couple of guys since we broke up and is now dating someone who shattered her heart before and whom she was originally dating because she felt sorry for him. Natalee is now dating a guy, shortly after breaking up with a long term boyfriend, who is not really there for her and the only thing they share in common is sex. As far as I can tell that also applies to Stacy and her boyfriend. I am not sure what is going on with Elisha right now, as I havn't seen anything since she was hanging out with that one guy and stuff like that doesn't tend to come up in our conversations.
In the past few years I have dated a girl from Canada named Tiffany who used me to make her boyfriend jealous enough to come back to her and if that didn't work out I would be a decent second prize. I had no idea about that at the time and was only made aware of the fact after he came back to her. Then there was Amy...she and I dated for a good while and have been flirting since I met her when she and her sister moved to Missouri from Texas. That relationship ended when she went away to college because she didn't really like me. She dated me because she wanted me to not be so down in the dumps and she had no other options at the time, but when it came time for her to go off to college, she decided that she didn't need to be tied down anymore and told me that all the times she told me that she loved me had been a lie.
After that I got back together with Kayge, whom I love very much and always will. When we first got back together, there was a lot of tension between us and other people due to the age difference. We worked through it all and had a lot of good times in the mix, then right when everything was settling down she left me. Our families finally accepted the relationship, the people at church stopped watching us to make sure we didn't do anything wrong, and she was about to turn seventeen so that the state would have no problem with it. On valentine's day though, I am suddenly to old and not at all what she wants.
I just don't understand why soo many of us are having these problems. Is it too much to ask, to just have a little happiness and peace?
I now have three girls that I am interested in, and as far as I know (recurring theme there) none of them are interested in me or available. One of them is a girl I know from work named Misty. She is a student that is doing her clinicals with our radiology department and I see her in the OR when we need them to do our images. She is attractive to me in the physical sense, but more than that she is extremely intelligent and very motivated. She works a full time job, goes to school, and still has time to do her clinicals at the hospital.
Then there is Kayge. Yep that's right my ex. Not only is she dating someone right now, but she practiclly did everything in her power to through me out of her life, and only accepted me as a friend when she realized that due to commitments we have both made, that it was impossible for us to avoid each other. I will always love her though, and unless I was dating someone that I liked a lot, I doubt that I could turn her down if she ever wanted me back.
Girl number three I have never met in person. She makes me laugh and smile, and I worry about her when I hear of things in her life. We talk on occasion when we see each other online, but due to our schedules that is maybe once or twice a week at best. I saw her online the other morning right before going to work. I had only intended to say hi and chit chat for fifteen min so I could leave with plenty of time to get to work. Almost an hour later I realized what time it was and had to finish getting my shoes and such on while saying goodbye and speed to get to work less late than I would have. I feel like I know her pretty well, and she knows me better than even a majority of my friends because I just feel so comfortable talking to her. Our wants and needs at this point in our life seem to be very similar, but alas...she lives a few hours away and I don't even know if she likes me or not. She turned me down the only time I ever tried to ask her out.
But hey, such is life. It is one big giant test to see how much you can take and what you can handle. You get pulled to your limits and then some with the promise that if you can make it through there will be a prize at the end of it all. The one thing I could use to help me make it through is love, I am just not sure if I can keep playing that game. Every time I try, I get burned it hurts worse and takes longer to heal. I just need to have someone to hold, smile at, and hear their voice say that it will all be alright.
-Dark
When the sun came up
We were sleeping in
Sunk inside our blankets
Sprawled across the bed, and we
were dreaming
There are moments when
When I know it and
The world revolves around us
And we're keeping it
Keep it all going
This delicate balance
Vulnerable, all knowing
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would kill for this
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would
Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything
We're glad for what we've got
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out
Right in front of us
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would, you would
(Sing like you think no one's listening)
You would kill for this
Just a little bit
Just a little bit
You would
Sing me something soft
Sad and delicate
Or loud and out of key
Sing me anything