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[fallenascalon]

I'm tired of not being happy.
I'm sick of hating myself.
I'm sick of not valuing my life.
I'm tired of being suicidal.

I hate not having a childhood.
I'm sick of not being able to read.
I'm tired of  feeling like nothing I do counts unless someone is watching.
I'm sick of being dependent.
I hate needing that push to get me going.

I hate spending every day at home, afraid of the world.
I hate that life is pointless.
I hate that life is beautiful and that I'm missing it.
I hate that I'm a hypocrite.
I hate that I'm a hedonist.
I hate that I don't care about the future.