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My prison penpal sent me a "thinking of you" card. Normally he makes me cards but he actually bought one for me, pressed a flower he found in the yard and just made me feel better in general. I am doing alright. Still some of the same issues but I feel stronger when I have my normal routine of work, sleep, workout, cook yummy stuff, work. It does not leave too much time to sulk. I totally vented to my penpal about the things I feel I cannot share with anyone else, not even internet strangers. Plus I had the feeling he could give me the opposite point of view which helps. The biggest thing he kept telling me is that what I am going through is not my fault and has nothing to do with me. I keep punishing myself for others issues and it is wrong. It is just nice to see it hand written by someone I do think cares about me (as much as you can through letters when you have never met or spoke).
All I can really do is focus on myself and give this current situation a couple of weeks before I do anything.
All I can really do is focus on myself and give this current situation a couple of weeks before I do anything.