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my mind is racing....
i miss everyone back at home very much so. i started to look back on all the things that havent crossed my mind for years. some memories i threw away because they were bad, or i made myself forget them. then i asked myself. why was i upset then, or sad even? those questions couldn't be answered... i didnt have a good childhood. thus, effecting me for the rest of my life. i hope my children dont suffer like i did.
the people in my mind used to be a part of my life. but that was all in the past, and theyre gone...i'll probably never see them again. how unfortunate for some, but fortunate for others. i wonder if they have forgotten about me, and im just a distant memory. decades from now, i hope people think good of me. but i know its not possible. decades from now, i hope they dont forget the memories we shared... im sorry if im just a bad memory.
i wouldn't like to meddle with the past, for it would alter everything. but some of my past, it would be neccessary. why are humans afraid of the past?
i have questions that need answered.
sometimes its nice to think of things that arent thought of much...
i miss everyone back at home very much so. i started to look back on all the things that havent crossed my mind for years. some memories i threw away because they were bad, or i made myself forget them. then i asked myself. why was i upset then, or sad even? those questions couldn't be answered... i didnt have a good childhood. thus, effecting me for the rest of my life. i hope my children dont suffer like i did.
the people in my mind used to be a part of my life. but that was all in the past, and theyre gone...i'll probably never see them again. how unfortunate for some, but fortunate for others. i wonder if they have forgotten about me, and im just a distant memory. decades from now, i hope people think good of me. but i know its not possible. decades from now, i hope they dont forget the memories we shared... im sorry if im just a bad memory.
i wouldn't like to meddle with the past, for it would alter everything. but some of my past, it would be neccessary. why are humans afraid of the past?
i have questions that need answered.
sometimes its nice to think of things that arent thought of much...