Focus...it gives you such...strength
I am having the hardest time focusing lately. I am daydreaming just as often as I always have, but the stories and daydreams just aren't going anywhere. Mostly, I think about my cruise. I've saved nearly $1800 for this thing, and still, no one worthy of going with, so I'm not going anywhere. I daydream about random occurances, conversations I'd like to have, fun-filled splurges of "wouldn't it be neat if-"'s, but nothing is coming of them.
Last year, I daydreamed, I wrote, and I had some good stories (I think, anyway, and a few others backed me up, which was very nice). Now, I can't get them to get going. I think it's because of the real world getting in my way. More dating woes (but nothing worth writing about), I've begun seriously exercising and think I'll finish my goal of running a 5K by the end of this summer, and I am changing jobs in the next two weeks. I'm worried about all three, but some in good ways, some in bad.
My new job will mean more hours, and a higher pay (so, more money, by a lot), but I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. My manic-depression has been flipping back and forth like a damn ping-pong ball lately. I'm up, I'm down, I'm up, I'm down. It's driving me nuts. I feel like the compass is just flying around and around. I hope it settles down, because this is a fun time of year, usually. I like the sun and the cool temperatures, it's my second favorite time of year behind fall...and I don't want to be all weird and uneven during this time of year.
Meh, I'm sure it'll work out, it almost always does.
Last year, I daydreamed, I wrote, and I had some good stories (I think, anyway, and a few others backed me up, which was very nice). Now, I can't get them to get going. I think it's because of the real world getting in my way. More dating woes (but nothing worth writing about), I've begun seriously exercising and think I'll finish my goal of running a 5K by the end of this summer, and I am changing jobs in the next two weeks. I'm worried about all three, but some in good ways, some in bad.
My new job will mean more hours, and a higher pay (so, more money, by a lot), but I'm not sure how I feel about that yet. My manic-depression has been flipping back and forth like a damn ping-pong ball lately. I'm up, I'm down, I'm up, I'm down. It's driving me nuts. I feel like the compass is just flying around and around. I hope it settles down, because this is a fun time of year, usually. I like the sun and the cool temperatures, it's my second favorite time of year behind fall...and I don't want to be all weird and uneven during this time of year.
Meh, I'm sure it'll work out, it almost always does.