I'm kinda thinkin' I might not frequent Q's so much for a while....
I would think that when shit happens people would ask my side of it before making assumptions. I came out and was honest about how I felt. Out of respect for a lot of people, including myself, I am choosing to spend the next -whoever knows how long- finding me. In the meantime, I still need my friends to support me.
I had issues with certain situations and events that have happened in the last month or so. I addresses those issues and it seemed like maybe there may have been a chance to fix things...but just when I thought things would get better...there it goes again..another setback, another reason to be leary. I forgave numerous happenings and would've hoped to get through the shit, but it seems like I just kept getting accused of things I wasn't doing and having shit thrown in my face.
I can do no more than be myself. I was honest. I was loyal. But it really wasn't enough. I feel like SOME backs are being turned on me and for something I really couldn't help. No one seems to understand save for a select few. Others choose not to pick sides. I can totally understand and appreciate that.
I came out of a relationship with many issues and I was upfront and honest about them all from the beginning. Obviously that was not enough. I asked for time and felt like I was not allowed my space. Just when I thought things would be fine, it blows up in my face and it seems like no salvation is in sight.
Now I'm probably a bitch or a cunt to some who don't know me or care enough to talk to me. I dunno. I'm not saying anyone has so much as said so, but its a vibe I seem to be feeling.To some, I've been hurtful and heartless, to others confused.
I've explained the best i can. I can't think of anymore to do. But I most certainly will not sit around and have people tell me I have to make nice when I'm receiving major attitude and negativity. I don't need to hear the stinging words come from your mouth when I'm trying to be civil. I feel its very unfair to have that expected of me.
I have feelings and I hurt just the same. And although some people view my actions as fucked up. I've not purposely done anything to hurt anyone.
Take what you will from this...I just felt as though I needed to say SOMETHING. I DO have feelings. I DO fucking care. Whether you choose to understand is up to you.
I had issues with certain situations and events that have happened in the last month or so. I addresses those issues and it seemed like maybe there may have been a chance to fix things...but just when I thought things would get better...there it goes again..another setback, another reason to be leary. I forgave numerous happenings and would've hoped to get through the shit, but it seems like I just kept getting accused of things I wasn't doing and having shit thrown in my face.
I can do no more than be myself. I was honest. I was loyal. But it really wasn't enough. I feel like SOME backs are being turned on me and for something I really couldn't help. No one seems to understand save for a select few. Others choose not to pick sides. I can totally understand and appreciate that.
I came out of a relationship with many issues and I was upfront and honest about them all from the beginning. Obviously that was not enough. I asked for time and felt like I was not allowed my space. Just when I thought things would be fine, it blows up in my face and it seems like no salvation is in sight.
Now I'm probably a bitch or a cunt to some who don't know me or care enough to talk to me. I dunno. I'm not saying anyone has so much as said so, but its a vibe I seem to be feeling.To some, I've been hurtful and heartless, to others confused.
I've explained the best i can. I can't think of anymore to do. But I most certainly will not sit around and have people tell me I have to make nice when I'm receiving major attitude and negativity. I don't need to hear the stinging words come from your mouth when I'm trying to be civil. I feel its very unfair to have that expected of me.
I have feelings and I hurt just the same. And although some people view my actions as fucked up. I've not purposely done anything to hurt anyone.
Take what you will from this...I just felt as though I needed to say SOMETHING. I DO have feelings. I DO fucking care. Whether you choose to understand is up to you.