Finally updating
Everything's so blurry, and everyone's so fake, and everyone's so empty, and everything is so messed up....
Oh how I love that song "Blurry" by Puddle of Mud, I love it. I dont know why but I have listened to it alot and it makes me feel so good....weird..but I guess that's how I've always felt about music. Ok moving on from that.
I broke up with Tony and I think he has me on block. I told him he needed someone there for him to love so he can hold her and kiss her and look into her eyes and see everything he loves about her. He said "ok then whatever" and I felt like we had nothing. It was such bull and I told him that and he signed offline and I haven't talked to him since. I dont know what to think. I really did care about him and I told him that but I guess the (almost) month we had meant nothing. I dont know. I dont think I'll be talking to him anymore. But if thats how he wants it then so be it. I'm not gonna cry about. But I'm pretty sure that from now on that I'm NOT getting involved with someone I will never see.
I've been kinda depressed. I dont know why. But I have been. I've gone successfully a while since I last cut and I haven't cut despite how down I've been. So yay for me. I dont think I will cut again because I dont want to be like that anymore and I just want to live my life and see how everything goes.
Basketball season is pretty much over, Thank God. I dont have but like one game left to cheer at. If the girls win the game we have tomorrow we'll have one more unless we make it to state, which is actually unlikely. So yeah, we'll have to see how that goes. Summer is slowly inching closer and I cant wait. I get happier and happier the sooner I get to leaving Missouri for Pennslyvania. So I just hope it goes faster.
I'm bored so I'm gonna put this thing on here.
Ask me any 3 questions, anything thats on your mind and I will answer each one truthfully. Ask away, then post in your journal.
Here's my song Blurry.
Everything's so blurry And everyone's so fake And everybody's empty and Everything is so messed up Preoccupied without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone You could be my scene You know that I'll protect you From all of the obscene I wonder what you're doin' Imagine where you are There's oceans in between us But that's not very far (Chorus) Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face Everyone is changing There's no one left that's real So make up your own ending And let me know just how you feel 'Cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all My whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl
And you could be my someone You could be my scene You know that I will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what you're doin' I wonder where you are There's oceans in between us but that's not very far (Chorus) Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me
Oh, nobody told me what you thought Nobody told me what to say Everyone showed you where to turn Told you where to run away Nobody told you where to hide Nobody told you what to say Everyone showed you where to turn Showed you where to run away (Chorus) Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me Can you take it all away Can you take it all away When you shoved it in my face This pain you gave to me NOOOOOOOO! This pain you gave to me Take it all away Take it all away Pain you gave to me Take it all away This pain you gave to me Take it all away This pain you gave to me
Beautiful. Just plain Damn beautiful.