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So the past 2 months have been pretty crazy and not crazy in a good way. I've been to the hospital 3 times in less then 2 months. That's not counting the times I’ve gone to the hospital to visit my grandfather. But me alone I’ve been in the emergency room 3 times. First time I went it was because I was having trouble breathing (which I still am) and they ran a whole bunch of tests and everything came back fine, so I left the hospital not knowing what the hell was wrong with me. Second time I went was because my heart was beating fast, I was getting tingles all over my body, fluttering in my heart, couldn't breathe, etc. So I basically sit in a chair for like 2 1/2 hours waiting for a doctor to come and see me and when he does he said I was having heart palpitations. After that I met with my primary doctor and she had me do 2 tests, an echocardiogram and a halter monitor test. Which both came back normal, as well as all my blood work. That was like a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders finding out that all I did actually have were heart palpitations (which still isn't cool) but I was just to hear it wasn't anything serious. The 3rd time I went to the hospital was two Sundays ago. I had one of my dizzy spells that I get at least a few times a year. I haven't had one since last Aug. and out of no where I get one. To make a long story short my doctor thinks that I may have vertigo. She wants me to see a neurologist and have tests done for it. Which would be another huge lift off my shoulders if it is vertigo because two years ago I had all these freaking tests done and not ONE doctor ever said anything about vertigo. It was funny that my doctor had mentioned it because I was looking up stuff on WebMD and I came upon vertigo. I went back to the site after I went to see my doctor and I really do have all the symptoms of vertigo. Down to the T! So I'm hoping that's what it is so I can finally know the reason to what it is I've been having for well over 6 years now.
Enough about health lol.
I'm hoping to go back to school in the fall *crosses fingers*. I really miss school.. believe it or not. I feel that being out of school is slowly making me stupid lol. I was also thinking I might just go back to BMCC to take a few extra classes to bring up my GPA a bit and just apply for the Spring. Which I'm most likely going to be ending up doing. Maybe take a summer class and then take like one or two classes in the fall. We shall see.
Two weeks ago a friend of mine had a small JHS reunion. It was quite fun. I had a really good time and saw a few people who I haven't seen in a really long time. Some of them I haven't seen since we has graduated and that was going on 10 years! Damn I feel old haha. Anywhoo we all went out to dinner and a few of us went out afterwards, which was SO much fun! One of the people who went out was Robbie. I had the biggest crush on him in JHS lol. It wasn't healthy at all lol. He really hasn't changed much. He's still super funny, nice and of course HOT! LOL. The good thing was that I didn't turn in to a 13 year old girl again, by that I mean shy, quite and could never ever speak to him lol because that's how I was in JHS. We flirted a little bit and talked a whole lot, which was nice. At the end of the night we were all deciding how to head on home. I wasn't going to waste money on a cab since I was only a few stops away from where I was in the city. My other friends decided to take a cab because they were further away but they were also going in the direction of where Robbie lived so they sais that they should all take a cab together. He said no because he didn't want to let me take the train home alone even if it was a few stops away........ =] haha I know I'm such a loser but I couldn't help but smile when he said that. It was really sweet of him to do that because he lives in Sheepshead and that's far from where we were. But I really appreciated him doing that because I have some guy friends who wouldn't do that. I really hope I'll see him again soon! I'd hate to lose contact with him again. I mean we did exchange numbers but like I'm a loser and I'm all nervous to call him to hang out lol.
I need a fucking job! I hate not working or going to school! Its seriously the worst thing ever. Sitting around watching movies and reading is not always fun...trust me.
My back is killing me! It hasn't hurt this much in forever. If I wasn't so scared to go under the knife again I would totally have all the screws and the rods removed so I wouldn't have to go through all this pain...but then I remember how hard it was for me before and after and I don't think I could go through it all over again. I just couldn't...I'm not strong enough. I do wish I had that morphine again though haha.
I still haven't found my Lucas Scott lol. In other words I have yet to meet a decent guy. No shock there. Tra la la. OH! Funny story so Anthony is apparently engaged to some girl he barely knows! I swear that dude has serious problems, he falls in love with girls in like a day and then marries them LOL. Its so strange but whatever! He's so weird lol.
Life is boring. I hate NYC. I want to leave so bad. Ugh. I'm spent.
"Life should be lived so vividly and so intensely that thoughts of another life, or of a longer life, are not necessary." - Marjory Stoneman Douglas
Enough about health lol.
I'm hoping to go back to school in the fall *crosses fingers*. I really miss school.. believe it or not. I feel that being out of school is slowly making me stupid lol. I was also thinking I might just go back to BMCC to take a few extra classes to bring up my GPA a bit and just apply for the Spring. Which I'm most likely going to be ending up doing. Maybe take a summer class and then take like one or two classes in the fall. We shall see.
Two weeks ago a friend of mine had a small JHS reunion. It was quite fun. I had a really good time and saw a few people who I haven't seen in a really long time. Some of them I haven't seen since we has graduated and that was going on 10 years! Damn I feel old haha. Anywhoo we all went out to dinner and a few of us went out afterwards, which was SO much fun! One of the people who went out was Robbie. I had the biggest crush on him in JHS lol. It wasn't healthy at all lol. He really hasn't changed much. He's still super funny, nice and of course HOT! LOL. The good thing was that I didn't turn in to a 13 year old girl again, by that I mean shy, quite and could never ever speak to him lol because that's how I was in JHS. We flirted a little bit and talked a whole lot, which was nice. At the end of the night we were all deciding how to head on home. I wasn't going to waste money on a cab since I was only a few stops away from where I was in the city. My other friends decided to take a cab because they were further away but they were also going in the direction of where Robbie lived so they sais that they should all take a cab together. He said no because he didn't want to let me take the train home alone even if it was a few stops away........ =] haha I know I'm such a loser but I couldn't help but smile when he said that. It was really sweet of him to do that because he lives in Sheepshead and that's far from where we were. But I really appreciated him doing that because I have some guy friends who wouldn't do that. I really hope I'll see him again soon! I'd hate to lose contact with him again. I mean we did exchange numbers but like I'm a loser and I'm all nervous to call him to hang out lol.
I need a fucking job! I hate not working or going to school! Its seriously the worst thing ever. Sitting around watching movies and reading is not always fun...trust me.
My back is killing me! It hasn't hurt this much in forever. If I wasn't so scared to go under the knife again I would totally have all the screws and the rods removed so I wouldn't have to go through all this pain...but then I remember how hard it was for me before and after and I don't think I could go through it all over again. I just couldn't...I'm not strong enough. I do wish I had that morphine again though haha.
I still haven't found my Lucas Scott lol. In other words I have yet to meet a decent guy. No shock there. Tra la la. OH! Funny story so Anthony is apparently engaged to some girl he barely knows! I swear that dude has serious problems, he falls in love with girls in like a day and then marries them LOL. Its so strange but whatever! He's so weird lol.
Life is boring. I hate NYC. I want to leave so bad. Ugh. I'm spent.
"Life should be lived so vividly and so intensely that thoughts of another life, or of a longer life, are not necessary." - Marjory Stoneman Douglas