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It's funny how something that doesn't directly involve you can still effect you so much.
How it can give you that little push you've so desperately needed to do the things you've been wanting to do for a while now, but have been too scared to go through with.
I know things aren't perfect ... but I'm trying. I'm really, genuinely trying to make them better.
Trying to fix myself, my life, and my relationships with the people that really matter.
I realize I have a lot of ground to cover, and a lot of things to make up for.
And to be honest, there's so many things I've screwed up over the past few years that I'm not really sure where to start ...
I'm just going to take it one step at a time.
I'm a mix of scared and optimistic.
But I want this so much ...
How it can give you that little push you've so desperately needed to do the things you've been wanting to do for a while now, but have been too scared to go through with.
I know things aren't perfect ... but I'm trying. I'm really, genuinely trying to make them better.
Trying to fix myself, my life, and my relationships with the people that really matter.
I realize I have a lot of ground to cover, and a lot of things to make up for.
And to be honest, there's so many things I've screwed up over the past few years that I'm not really sure where to start ...
I'm just going to take it one step at a time.
I'm a mix of scared and optimistic.
But I want this so much ...