And slowly the world spins on
Recently I have had to think (fuck you know this is going to be a bad entry when that happens) about my life and things I have heard from other people. Right now my girlfriend is all torn up over college, as am I, but it seems impossible to sort out what to do. Everyone is like you two love each other so no matter where you go it will work. I bet they are all right but it would be nice to wake up each morning call up Marissa and go have breakfast or some cute shit that you see all these couples doing. Don't get me wrong in any way I love that girl to death she means more to me then anything on this planet, sometimes it is just hard. Then I kinda know where I want to go to school but that leaves Marissa a choice like go to school around here if you want to be with me, which is fucked up.
DAMN!
Next I guess I just want to state some random things that have been in my head. First after much thinking and realizing just how unimportant it is I have decided that holding some type of grudge against Gavin or worrying when Marissa and him want to talk or hang out is dumb. On that same note I guess I want to say I am sorry to both of you for ruining the time you guys hung out over Christmas. Secondly I have been feeling lost anymore it seems like so many things crave my attention that I am trying to go to many ways at once. If there was ever a time that my life was the proverbial spinning wheel that went FUCKING NOWHERE it is now. Lastly there is something I just wanted to say for the entire world to know, I love Marissa! I know that many may not care to read on or one to so if you don't then just stop now.
Life is a thing of constant change. Every second everyday your life changes sometimes in subtle ways you swallow food or grow a mm of hair but sometimes and more memorable are the grand changes. A person wanders either into or out of your life. Some of these people leave no impression and disappear quickly others stay or create an impression that will forever be on your soul. I use to believe I lead a good life I had an amazing group of friends who would do anything for me, I was over my whore ex-girlfriend, and I had money; I now know this is wrong. My life was missing that one important part a single person to be there no matter what you need, to love you when you don't deserve it, to support you when your wrong, to catch you every time you fall, to trust you when everyone is saying your lying, to just be that one person that so many people could spend their life looking for. I found mine she is an amazing woman named... Marissa! To everyone out there who wonders if it will happen the answer is yes just don't try to force it. Also don't read to much into it that person could be a bestfriend it does not need to be a girl/boy friend. So rare is it that people will point out the good things in their life, because they are to busy living in them that I think each of you who read this should. Look at your lives and find that good thing and point it out, cause we all have them. If that is a little to odd or talkshow host like then just think about it.
The road we all once traveled together blindly and in fun is now separating but no matter how many lanes form or barrier walls come up we can all know that were all still right next to each other.
-tj
DAMN!
Next I guess I just want to state some random things that have been in my head. First after much thinking and realizing just how unimportant it is I have decided that holding some type of grudge against Gavin or worrying when Marissa and him want to talk or hang out is dumb. On that same note I guess I want to say I am sorry to both of you for ruining the time you guys hung out over Christmas. Secondly I have been feeling lost anymore it seems like so many things crave my attention that I am trying to go to many ways at once. If there was ever a time that my life was the proverbial spinning wheel that went FUCKING NOWHERE it is now. Lastly there is something I just wanted to say for the entire world to know, I love Marissa! I know that many may not care to read on or one to so if you don't then just stop now.
Life is a thing of constant change. Every second everyday your life changes sometimes in subtle ways you swallow food or grow a mm of hair but sometimes and more memorable are the grand changes. A person wanders either into or out of your life. Some of these people leave no impression and disappear quickly others stay or create an impression that will forever be on your soul. I use to believe I lead a good life I had an amazing group of friends who would do anything for me, I was over my whore ex-girlfriend, and I had money; I now know this is wrong. My life was missing that one important part a single person to be there no matter what you need, to love you when you don't deserve it, to support you when your wrong, to catch you every time you fall, to trust you when everyone is saying your lying, to just be that one person that so many people could spend their life looking for. I found mine she is an amazing woman named... Marissa! To everyone out there who wonders if it will happen the answer is yes just don't try to force it. Also don't read to much into it that person could be a bestfriend it does not need to be a girl/boy friend. So rare is it that people will point out the good things in their life, because they are to busy living in them that I think each of you who read this should. Look at your lives and find that good thing and point it out, cause we all have them. If that is a little to odd or talkshow host like then just think about it.
The road we all once traveled together blindly and in fun is now separating but no matter how many lanes form or barrier walls come up we can all know that were all still right next to each other.
-tj