....I Get it....
This is for anyone who has ever been stuck in the same damn place....
Tonight was suppose to be different then most nights here in VA, a break from the repetitively, dull hum-drum that is life here. But alas tonight turned out to be like any other night there was nothing to do, I went to the same god damn mall and wandered around. Ok so maybe this is wrong tonight was different from all those others nights were I was just another mindless soul wandering through the wastelands of youth at a shitty mall; because tonight I used my mind to think.
What I came up with in all my thinking is that most of the friendships I have are BULLSHIT!!! This does not include a select few who truly are friends in the whole sense of the word but the rest who only care sometimes. I finally realized that in most of these "friendships" there is always some underlying idea like fix this, lend me cash for that, listen to me bitch for the 4,000,000th day in a row about the same stupid thing, give me advice on my life (so I can blame you when it goes to shit), blah, blah, blah!! Well I am sick of it so for the record lets clear up just a few things: 1) I am not a fucking repair guide you need something fixed take it to someone that knows what they are doing, this includes cars, broken hearts, computers, and any other damn thing you can break. 2) I am not an ATM, I do not have a insert hole (haha lets laugh like 5 year olds at the word insert...ASSES) oh yea and a funny difference at least at a bank they get money coming in and out not just going out.... hmmmm... maybe some people should make a deposit and I wouldn't bitch so much. 3) I don't really give a shit about your sad, sorrowful, and pathetic relationship problems the fact he wouldn't talk to you or she is annoying are not things I can change nor things I care about. I have a great girlfriend and well if you want to talk about relationships lets talk about her. 4) If you are reading this and believe that you are one of the people above you are probally wrong cause that is another thing no one listens when I talk so happy assuming.
Now that I got all of that off my chest I really am confused far beyond the high school bullshit of fighting with fake friends. My life has way to many choices I need to make and they range across the spectrum from simple and little like black shirt blue shirt to what do I want to be when I grow up, where do I want to go to school, and how do I keep my girlfriend without jeopardizing either of our lives? Look I no this is the point where someone will respond with how could you say you dont want to hear any bitching yet you are going to bitch about your life. To that asshole I say you chose to come and read my journal so dont give me your shit, these are my personal thoughts.
So for tonight just ponder this set of questions:
1) Why is it worth even worrying about?
2) Do you actually care about what your worrying over?
3) Will it matter 24 hours from now?
-tj
Tonight was suppose to be different then most nights here in VA, a break from the repetitively, dull hum-drum that is life here. But alas tonight turned out to be like any other night there was nothing to do, I went to the same god damn mall and wandered around. Ok so maybe this is wrong tonight was different from all those others nights were I was just another mindless soul wandering through the wastelands of youth at a shitty mall; because tonight I used my mind to think.
What I came up with in all my thinking is that most of the friendships I have are BULLSHIT!!! This does not include a select few who truly are friends in the whole sense of the word but the rest who only care sometimes. I finally realized that in most of these "friendships" there is always some underlying idea like fix this, lend me cash for that, listen to me bitch for the 4,000,000th day in a row about the same stupid thing, give me advice on my life (so I can blame you when it goes to shit), blah, blah, blah!! Well I am sick of it so for the record lets clear up just a few things: 1) I am not a fucking repair guide you need something fixed take it to someone that knows what they are doing, this includes cars, broken hearts, computers, and any other damn thing you can break. 2) I am not an ATM, I do not have a insert hole (haha lets laugh like 5 year olds at the word insert...ASSES) oh yea and a funny difference at least at a bank they get money coming in and out not just going out.... hmmmm... maybe some people should make a deposit and I wouldn't bitch so much. 3) I don't really give a shit about your sad, sorrowful, and pathetic relationship problems the fact he wouldn't talk to you or she is annoying are not things I can change nor things I care about. I have a great girlfriend and well if you want to talk about relationships lets talk about her. 4) If you are reading this and believe that you are one of the people above you are probally wrong cause that is another thing no one listens when I talk so happy assuming.
Now that I got all of that off my chest I really am confused far beyond the high school bullshit of fighting with fake friends. My life has way to many choices I need to make and they range across the spectrum from simple and little like black shirt blue shirt to what do I want to be when I grow up, where do I want to go to school, and how do I keep my girlfriend without jeopardizing either of our lives? Look I no this is the point where someone will respond with how could you say you dont want to hear any bitching yet you are going to bitch about your life. To that asshole I say you chose to come and read my journal so dont give me your shit, these are my personal thoughts.
So for tonight just ponder this set of questions:
1) Why is it worth even worrying about?
2) Do you actually care about what your worrying over?
3) Will it matter 24 hours from now?
-tj