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It's like no matter what I do with my life, or how much I try to make it right, I fuck it up somehow. I don't know why, but I am never satisfied. It's a curse. It's like this never ending circle of constantly being unsure and changing my mind. First, I don't know what I want... then I think I do... so I go for it 100 percent, right or wrong I do it... I do it knowing that there will be consequences for all of my actions. I'm not stupid, I know ahead of time what i'm doing and what i'm getting into...I just don't care. Life fast, die fun... right? my motto for so many years???
Live and learn right??? That's what everyone keeps telling me, but then they look at me when I do something they don't agree with... like THEY have any right to criticize me! Why does everyone have to be so god damn judgmental... I mean really some people in this world are fucking crazy, but I think the problem is that they are all just absent minded, blinded by the world before them. Sitting in their pretend perfect little bubble. Bullshit is what it is. I'm going to do it my way for now on.
I admit i've made mistakes, said some things that shouldn't have been said, done some things I shouldn't have done... But i'm just trying to figure out this fucked up world. I'm just so sick of people telling me how to be, when it's like... hmm did they ever step outside the box and try it their fucking selves? I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest. I don't give a god damn about your opinion if I don't know you. I hate Coldwater, and my advice to anyone is get out while you can... if it's only for a little while. You will find yourself out there. I promise you will, and you'll be independent and ohh it's so great. You can totally tell the people who stay in this small town... they all act the same, they all have same personalities.
And it's funny how the only way I can shake this out of my system is by typing it on some stupid journal, where I will be judged and criticized more... life. Sometimes I find myself laughing at how stupid it all is.
big su-fi
Live and learn right??? That's what everyone keeps telling me, but then they look at me when I do something they don't agree with... like THEY have any right to criticize me! Why does everyone have to be so god damn judgmental... I mean really some people in this world are fucking crazy, but I think the problem is that they are all just absent minded, blinded by the world before them. Sitting in their pretend perfect little bubble. Bullshit is what it is. I'm going to do it my way for now on.
I admit i've made mistakes, said some things that shouldn't have been said, done some things I shouldn't have done... But i'm just trying to figure out this fucked up world. I'm just so sick of people telling me how to be, when it's like... hmm did they ever step outside the box and try it their fucking selves? I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest. I don't give a god damn about your opinion if I don't know you. I hate Coldwater, and my advice to anyone is get out while you can... if it's only for a little while. You will find yourself out there. I promise you will, and you'll be independent and ohh it's so great. You can totally tell the people who stay in this small town... they all act the same, they all have same personalities.
And it's funny how the only way I can shake this out of my system is by typing it on some stupid journal, where I will be judged and criticized more... life. Sometimes I find myself laughing at how stupid it all is.
big su-fi